August Moon: Don’t Wait

Today, Kat asks, “What if there is no need to wait until you’re ‘perfectly formed’?”

Don’t wait until you have it all figured out. Pick something easy, something scary. Just start. And keep going.

What if what you are doing right now was actually your destination? What would that mean for your journey?

Yes. This. Stop waiting for something to happen and happen. Have the life you want now. This is all true. I absolutely agree. I live this. I don’t so much need to hear the “just start, don’t wait” part. What I need to remember is that I’m already there, the place I’ve been trying so hard to get is here.

It makes me think of a quote I saw and saved the other day, one I’ve seen attributed both to the brilliant Anonymous and the wise Unknown, “Maybe the journey isn’t so much about becoming anything. Maybe it’s about unbecoming everything that isn’t you so you can be who you were meant to be in the first place.” Which makes me think of something I’ve heard in my Buddhist studies, that we are already enlightened, we just forgot, simply need to remember, wake up. Again, the implication being that rather than becoming, our task is to be. That to evolve, become enlightened is simply to remember who we already are, always have been, to cut through our confusion.

As Rumi said, “I have been a seeker and I still am, but I stopped asking the books and the stars. I started listening to the teachings of my soul.” To be able to hear, see clearly, there’s a need for stillness and quiet, a cessation of busyness. And yet, I am still in the in-between state where I have access to the wisdom but have trouble always applying it. Even though I’d like to say my to-do list for the day is to do nothing, to be aimless, to follow my heart, to honor my hunger and need for rest, to let the “soft animal of my body to love what it loves,” I will actually practice teaching the yoga class for my teacher training final, read the homework from Ringo and I’s training class and watch some related videos and do some work with him, do a load of laundry and balance my checkbook, write two blog posts and prep another — all because it’s Sunday and tomorrow I have to go back to work.

This is the in-between. I am not exactly embodying my own wisdom.

6 thoughts on “August Moon: Don’t Wait

  1. Rebekah

    I have to gently disagree with your statement that you are not living your own wisdom. From your pictures to your posts, its about your yoga teaching, the dogs and your relationships. Your now, your here is bring fulfilled by your to do list. Each task supports your now and here. This is wisdom is it not?

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    1. jillsalahub Post author

      I am so touched by this, so grateful, Rebekah. The other day in response to one of Kat’s prompts, I wrote about the help of kindreds “who will gently tell me the truth,” and you’ve done just that. Thank you. ♥

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  2. Susan Fox

    I like what both of you have written, it reminds me of the quote I have forgotten where! But it says ” We are walking each other home”. So if we can keep doing this in the spirit of mildness we each share something really valuable, our gift to the world, our sisterhood. x

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    1. jillsalahub Post author

      Yes, Susan. That’s one of my favorite quotes: “We’re all just walking each other home.” ~Ram Dass. And I think that this post wasn’t finished until Rebekah posted her comment. ♥

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  3. Kat McNally

    I will lovingly disagree here, my beloved friend. Because I see you embodying your wisdom and following the lead of the soft animal of your body. Your To Do list is what you Want To Do. Because you know it’ll make your life smoother down the track. Even if you’re more than a little depleted now. The “doing nothing and following your heart” sounds like a Should Do here and a little like an accusation. I say this because it sounds so familiar. And I realise that I am actually writing here what I want to say to myself. I see myself tyrannised by To Do lists, and giving myself hell for being tyrannised. “Why haven’t I got this right yet?” And that is making it all a thousand times worse! Maybe if I just moved through the To Do list with as much loving mindfulness as I could muster… I wonder…
    Thank you, my mirror. As always. x

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    1. jillsalahub Post author

      Thank you so much for this feedback, Kat, this reminder. It’s funny because I can take any perspective, even the gentlest of things like “you need to rest,” and turn it into a project, a should, enter into judgement and criticism. We are so silly. ♥

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