Daily Archives: August 24, 2014

August Moon: Don’t Wait

Today, Kat asks, “What if there is no need to wait until you’re ‘perfectly formed’?”

Don’t wait until you have it all figured out. Pick something easy, something scary. Just start. And keep going.

What if what you are doing right now was actually your destination? What would that mean for your journey?

Yes. This. Stop waiting for something to happen and happen. Have the life you want now. This is all true. I absolutely agree. I live this. I don’t so much need to hear the “just start, don’t wait” part. What I need to remember is that I’m already there, the place I’ve been trying so hard to get is here.

It makes me think of a quote I saw and saved the other day, one I’ve seen attributed both to the brilliant Anonymous and the wise Unknown, “Maybe the journey isn’t so much about becoming anything. Maybe it’s about unbecoming everything that isn’t you so you can be who you were meant to be in the first place.” Which makes me think of something I’ve heard in my Buddhist studies, that we are already enlightened, we just forgot, simply need to remember, wake up. Again, the implication being that rather than becoming, our task is to be. That to evolve, become enlightened is simply to remember who we already are, always have been, to cut through our confusion.

As Rumi said, “I have been a seeker and I still am, but I stopped asking the books and the stars. I started listening to the teachings of my soul.” To be able to hear, see clearly, there’s a need for stillness and quiet, a cessation of busyness. And yet, I am still in the in-between state where I have access to the wisdom but have trouble always applying it. Even though I’d like to say my to-do list for the day is to do nothing, to be aimless, to follow my heart, to honor my hunger and need for rest, to let the “soft animal of my body to love what it loves,” I will actually practice teaching the yoga class for my teacher training final, read the homework from Ringo and I’s training class and watch some related videos and do some work with him, do a load of laundry and balance my checkbook, write two blog posts and prep another — all because it’s Sunday and tomorrow I have to go back to work.

This is the in-between. I am not exactly embodying my own wisdom.

August Break: Memory

memoryMemory. During three different summers, I’ve found each of these figures at the Waldport Flea Market. Two dogs to represent the ones here and the ones gone, one ears up and one ears down, one big and one little. The Bodhisattva in the middle to remind me who I am. They are of that place, “where the forest meets the sea,” where half my heart lives.