Something Good

1. Poetry: Vermeer by Tomas Tranströmer, Vita Nova by Louise Glück and Moonlight Romantica by Todd Turnidge and Honeycrisp by January Gill O’Neil and 1985 by Vincent Rendoni and Poem Beginning in Berlin, Ending in Boston, and Bookended by Rilke by Tiana Clark on poets.org, from Mosaic by Supritha Rajan and Reverse Requiem by Ina Cariño and If Night You Were a City by Adam Wiedewitsch on The Slowdown with Maggie Smith, When the screen goes black the only thing left glowing by Jasmine on The Tiny Joy Project, Heart Medicine by Rosemerry Wahtola Trommer, Daffodil Teachers and Rough Grace from James Crews, Small Moments by James Crews on Heart Poems, The Pact by Jena Schwartz, and Because, War by Hayden Saunier and The Senior Living Bus Goes to the Churches on Sundays by Fleda Brown on Rattle. 

2. The news ≠ your life from Oliver Burkeman on The Imperfectionist. “But if it really has become a privilege to retain one’s sanity, I think it’s one the privileged need to exercise, not disavow. In an era when the news leaves half your friends paralysed by misery, it’s no indulgence to make time for whatever’s pleasurable or engrossing in your life. On the contrary, the world needs sane people more than ever.”

3. Hachette pulls horror novel Shy Girl after suspected AI use on The Guardian. In related news, Shy Girl, AI In Writing, And A New Perniciousness from Chuck Wendig on Terrible Minds.

4. Good stuff from The Beautiful Mess by John Pavlovitz: How Will This End for MAGA Americans? The Same Way It Did for NAZI Germans: Feigned Ignorance, and Trump Supporters, Is This Really What You Voted For?, and MAGAs Are Destroying America For Spite, and Confronting the Mental Health Crisis of Trump’s America.

5. Transparent Toilets Take Tokyo’s Culture of Hygiene to the Next Level. “Don’t worry—once their doors are locked, smart glass technology ensures the exteriors become opaque.”

6. Not Missing Your Life. “In 1979, Jon [Kabat-Zinn] started MBSR in the basement of a medical facility at the University of Massachusetts. The patients referred to him were the ones nobody else knew what to do with. Chronic pain. Chronic anxiety. Chronic depression. They had an average of eight years of symptoms with no improvement.”

7. Thank you, Darkness/Welcome, Light! “a turn of the wheel, a new beginning {Letter One: Spring Dreaming}” from Alix on Earth & Verse.

8. Mental Declutter: 8 Gentle Ways to Spring Clean Your Mind by Courtney Carver on Be More With Less.

9. in the closets of my mother-the-model. “From Dior to The Gap, my mother was defined by her clothes until the end” by Elissa Altman on Poor Man’s Feast.

10. Haunted by Waters by Amy Marie Turner. “What will this summer look like when there isn’t melt water or precipitation to recharge our vital rivers? How do we get to the other side of the environmental damage that we are witnessing in our lifetime?” *sigh*

11. The Best Things I’ve Done to Cope With AnxietyBe sure to take a look at the comments section too.

12. We asked experts about the most responsible ways to use AI tools – here’s what they said on The Guardian.

13. Books of Love, “A conversation about poetry, community, and being Black in America” with Camille T. Dungy and Sean Hill on Orion Magazine.

14. The Plan. “How much of the pleasure of making a garden is in the plan?” by Eula Biss on Orion Magazine.

15. How a Film About Andrea Gibson Became an Oscar-Nominated Love Story. “Director Ryan White talks about making Come See Me in the Good Light, the acclaimed documentary about Colorado’s late poet laureate Andrea Gibson that captures their final years—and the relationship that sustained them.”

16. Please Don’t Tell Me How to Feel About My Breast Cancer. “Or any other loss I’ll inevitably face” by Giulia Rozzi on Open Secrets Magazine.

17. Recipe I want to try: Gochujang Chicken Burgers with Kimchi Bacon Jam.

18. Paula Doress-Worters, an Author of ‘Our Bodies, Ourselves,’ Dies at 87 on The New York Times. (gift link) “She wrote about postpartum depression when it was an unmentionable like abortion or birth control, and her research on her own suffering helped countless women.”

19. The Funniest Conversation You’ll Ever Hear About Achieving Inner Peace, Pete Holmes with Dan Harris on 10% Happier. (video) “You were taught that spiritual growth takes effort. Comedian and writer Pete Holmes thinks that might be exactly backwards — and he’s got the mushroom trip, the divorce, and the Richard Rohr quotes to back it up. Pete Holmes is a comedian, actor, writer, and host of the long-running podcast *You Made It Weird*. He is the author of *Comedy Sex God*, a memoir about faith, comedy, and the search for meaning…This is a live conversation recorded in front of an audience — and one of the most joyful, wide-ranging spiritual discussions Dan has ever had on stage.”

20. A Reason to Send You a Letter from Jamie Attenberg on Craft Talk.

21. Lowering the Volume. “On attunement, erasure, and what reveals itself in the quiet” on The Isolation Journals with Suleika Jaouad.

22. The Queen of Three Beautiful Things. An interview with Clare Law and Satya Robyn.

23. An Existential Guide to: Regret. “Regret is a bruise that never ripens” on The Shadowed Archive.

24. We need you, hopepunks. “You are the antidote to apathy and cynicism” from Brad Montague on The Enthusiast.

25. Why My Father Wants His Workbench. “On familiar spaces, Alzheimer’s, and what we grieve when we lose home” by Elizabeth Kleinfeld.

26. What We Write About When We Write About The Self. “Some thoughts on the recent memoir discourse” from Summer Brennan on A Writer’s Notebook.

27. Why Sucking at Your Hobby Could Be a Secret Weapon.

28. Lou Reed’s Nephew: The Collages. “How they came to be” by Jim Hanas.

29. The Bigness of Small Talk, a guest opinion essay on The New York Times. (gift link)

30. Monarch butterfly population increases by 64%.

31. 5 Beautiful Articles About Creativity.

32. And finally, a few random things I saved to my phone this week.

Gratitude

1. Morning walks. Eric was on spring break this past week, so we got to go together, and that’s always nice. I stayed home this morning instead of going with them, instead of sleeping in, and I’m sitting here wondering why I didn’t go, wishing I had — they just got home as I was typing that. 🙂

2. Practice. I still haven’t reset my practice space after moving it around to make it a spare bedroom a few weeks ago, and with my anxiety so triggered, it’s been hard to meditate anyway, and something about spring is motivating me to try again, to reset and restart, so I’m looking forward to getting that back together this weekend. Yoga at Red Sage is always such a joy, such medicine, as is my Friday morning writing group.

3. My “other” family. Mom is doing well. In a few weeks, it will be her birthday, not one we expected her to see, to be here for. And even though she no longer has any real sense of the calendar or time and doesn’t remember birthdays or holidays, I’d love to be there with her for it, but that’s not likely to work out and with the way my anxiety and air travel has been lately, it’s probably better to not try. The realtor for her house sent pictures of the new paint and it’s just so strange to see it like that, the wallpaper gone, and we all know it has to be done but it’s still so sad. There’s still lots to be done and I’m so grateful Chris is there and willing to take care of all that. The littles just keep growing and getting bigger, with little man Warren now wearing some of his Mom’s old clothes.

4. Spring. Forsythia are blooming and my daffodils are coming up. We’ve been running the sprinkler on the grass in the backyard and watering the trees and the lilac bushes because it’s been so warm and dry. Soon they’ll announce and implement whatever water restrictions we’ll have in place over the summer and it means we won’t plant much of a garden if any at all, but for now, we run the sprinkler and sit out in the backyard under the shade of our umbrella and enjoy it. While the climate crisis we are in may only keep getting worse until it’s all underwater or burnt, and this may be the coming of the apocalypse, it doesn’t mean I can’t also for now water the grass to help it turn more green and alive and feel joy at the blooms. What else would I be doing besides raging and worrying and grieving? I do all that too, but too much of that or only that and there is no chance of surviving — and by that I don’t mean making it through to the other side of whatever this is, but rather keeping my heart alive, tender and open while it all burns, seeing how beautiful even the fire is, how brilliant and how brutal. I can pack a go bag in case we need to evacuate but I can also keep a vase of flowers on the kitchen table. It makes me think of these poems by Ada Limón.

5. My tiny family, small house, little life. I’ve been doing a lot of tinkering and cleaning around the house, part because of the inspiration of spring and also because after clearing out Mom’s house I can’t help but see all my “stuff” in a different light. For now, as is always part of the process in such matters, it just looks like a big mess, but I’m not giving up yet. Eric goes back to work next week, and I feel summer rushing towards us already. Ringo is doing well and I’m so happy for that. Now that the weather is warmer, he’s started that thing he did last year: I take him out to go potty one last time before bed and he’ll lie down in the grass to lounge for a bit before doing what we came out to do. It could be a little annoying because I’m ready to go to bed, but I remind myself we don’t have a lot of time left together and some day I’m going to miss this pause, so I stay and sit with him and enjoy the cool/warm night air and the quiet.

Bonus joy: losing track of what day of the week it is, chicken pot pie, noticing all the blooming things, other people’s dogs and kids, blue sky, sunrise, gummies, our new bed, pizza, Ringo’s care team, a big glass of cold clean water, Dairy Queen ice cream for “dinner,” libraries and librarians, book club, stickers, watching movies 20 minutes at a time, naps, a warm shower, getting rid of things we don’t need anymore, the sound of the trains, water, cherry blossom season, rain (sure wish we’d get some), my dad’s old school pictures from when he was little, making myself a new playlist, listening to podcasts, comedy and comedians, being able to start over, lowering the bar, reading in bed at night while Eric and Ringo sleep.