Gratitude Friday

1. Practice. Yoga, meditation, writing, and dog. It’s the way I make sense of things, the way I am able to stay with what is, the thing that keeps me from giving up.

2. Kitchen counter love notes. One this week was spooky, in honor of the season.

3. Writing with Mikalina and Chloe’. The last few times we got online, we hung out and told each other stories, but this time we actually wrote together…and told each other stories.

4. Morning walks. Poor Eric was on duty the two mornings it rained this week, but my walks were lovely, except for the part where they cut those two trees down to make space for a new house, the same spot we saw the twin baby deer napping that one time, the same ones I always take pictures of. Yes, they were both dead, but they were a gorgeous shape against the morning sky.

5. My tiny family. Ringo is feeling better and Sam is keeping me warm on these cooler mornings. Hopefully Eric won’t have to work so much this weekend and we can do something fun together.

Bonus joy: teaching yoga, opening a new bag of potato chips (so fresh and crunchy!), having all the laundry done, clean sheets on the bed, napping, good TV (the new series, Criminal, streaming on Netflix is really good, and all my favorite “regular TV” shows are back on and streaming on Hulu), good books (I am still working my way through all of Maya Angelou’s autobiographies — she had such an interesting life!), a new printer (now I just have to set it up), knowing that it will take time but it will be okay, laughing with Eric.

 

Something Good

From our walk

1. Do we have to love our work? from Paul Jarvis. His part two to this post is Passion Kills.

2. Antidotes to Overwork from Zen Habits.

3. How To Strengthen Your Intuition (Your INFJ Superpower).

4. I study collapsed civilizations. Here’s my advice for a climate change apocalypse.

5. WDS 2019 Main Stage Keynote – Marsha Shandur on Taming the Beast. (video) “At WDS 2019, Marsha reminded us that all have a beast who whispers in our ear. That voice that tells us we are unlovable, not talented, and incapable of achieving our dreams and goals. She also shared 4 steps on how to tame the beast and find ways to use its presence to help us live the lives we want—and ultimately, to help others as well.”

6. Weight Stigma – The Root of Eating Disorders.

7. Greta Thunberg isn’t the only trailblazing young climate leader. Activists from the Amazon to Nigeria share their ideas for battling the climate crisis.

8. Rachel Cole launched her new website. “My work in the world is all about guiding people to trust their hungers and feast on their lives. As a life coach and teacher, I live to share the wisdom and tools that have helped me and my clients to find peace with food, love for our bodies, and truly fulfilling lives.”

9. You’ll be miserable if you don’t do what you’re supposed to do from Austin Kleon.

10. Today [Yesterday] Would Have Been Botham Jean’s 28th Birthday And Social Media Is Celebrating His Life.

11. City Leader Calls Out ‘Bad Police Officer’ During Awards Ceremony in Broward County, Fla.

12. “The Good Place” Is a Show About Why We’re Good on Lion’s Roar. “According to Zen priest Gesshin Greenwood, NBC’s The Good Place shows us people are good because of their bond to each other — even in the afterlife.”

13. Sikh Deputy ‘Trailblazer’ Fatally Shot In Houston-Area Traffic Stop.

14. Georgia Professor Holds Student’s Baby, A Life Lesson Bundled On Her Back.

15. Jenny Odell on why we need to learn to do nothing: ‘It’s a reminder that you’re alive.’ “The author and artist’s keynote address on our fractured attention spans went viral. Now she has a plan for how to heal them: lose ourselves in nature.”

16. Black Virginia Girl Says White Classmates Cut Her Dreadlocks on Playground on The New York Times. “The police said they were investigating a report by 12-year-old Amari Allen that three white students forcibly cut portions of her hair at their Christian school.”

17. Prince died after taking fake Vicodin laced with fentanyl, prosecutor says. “‘In all likelihood, Prince had no idea he was taking a counterfeit pill that could kill him,’ the Minnesota prosecutor said.”

18. Some People Are Pissed At Mattel’s New Gender-Neutral Doll Collection.

19. ‘I Hate Myself,’ Former Dallas Police Officer Who Killed Neighbor Tells Jurors. Guilty of murder. That is the only answer here, even as I don’t believe that will be the outcome. She entered an apartment that wasn’t hers and murdered the person who lived there. Knowing why satisfies our curiosity but can not stand as a justification.

20. App Developer Responds to ‘The Racist Nextdoor.’

21. Exercising To Ease Pain: Taking Brisk Walks Can Help. This is a good reason to exercise: so you feel better, maybe even have some fun. Notice this article says not one thing about weight.

22. Eddie Murphy Is Bringing Eddie Murphy Back on The New York Times. “In a wide-ranging interview, the star explains why he’s returning to stand-up and the big screen, why he regrets leaving and why it’s hard to watch himself in ‘Raw’ these days.”

23. 21-Year-Old Hotel Employee Manages 90 Guests Alone After Getting Trapped by Tropical Storm for Over 24 Hours.

24. The Quiet Harm of #TransformationTuesday. “On the healing fantasy of thinness, and what your before and after photos tell the fat people in your life.”

25. Netflix’s ‘Unbelievable’ dares police to do better when it comes to sexual assault.

26. A baby’s laughter is the sweetest sound there is. (video) The way this kid says “W” though… I’ve watched this at least 20 times.

27. Found a mini toy keyboard…so Lizzo it is. (video)

28. This Mexican Abuelita Is Getting Millions of Views For Her Cooking Videos.

Gratitude Friday (on a Saturday)

1. Morning walks. This week, we finally were able to walk by the river again. The weather has cooled enough that the mosquitoes are gone. I missed this part of the trail so much.

2. The colors of the Colorado sky. There were a few mornings it was a particular shade of lavender that seems almost impossible.

3. Space and rest. This is a big shift I’m making, and I really need the extra room, the extra stillness.

Post workout and pool and sauna

Sam “helping” me meditate

4. Tomatoes. Tis the season. Even though ours had a late start and are already slowing down as the weather cools, a friend gave us a 20 pound box from their garden, so I spend yesterday making roasted tomato soup and salsa. There is something so therapeutic about the chopping and the smell.

5. My tiny family. The love notes Eric leaves for me on the kitchen counter, Ringo’s belly feeling better (it was a bit wonky this week, requiring a visit with his favorite vet, some meds and mild meals for a few days), and how Sam is always checking on me, following me around like my shadow.

Bonus joy: new gym shoes, everything turning red and gold, naps, cooking, cooking enough to share, bran muffins with dried raspberries, good books, good TV, my infrared heating pad, teaching yoga, hanging out with Mikalina, having all the laundry done and folded and put away, making Eric laugh.

 

Something Good

Kitchen counter love note from Eric

My apologies! I had this post ready to go yesterday, but wanted to make one last pass before publishing…and forgot!

1. Yoga is Dead, a new podcast I’m digging. Even if you don’t want to listen to the episodes or aren’t a yoga geek like me, check out their resources, which aren’t limited to the topic of yoga.

2. Steve McCurry’s images of harvest are gorgeous. Check out the rest of his work too, it’s brutally, beautifully human.

3. Your Liberation Is on the Line. “‘No one who has ever touched liberation could possibly want anything other than liberation for everyone,’ says Rev. angel Kyodo williams. She shares why we must each fully commit to our own path to liberation, for the benefit of all.”

4. An Anthony Bourdain Auction Will Include His Treasured Knife. “A year after the celebrity chef’s death, some of his things are going on sale to benefit his family and the Culinary Institute of America.” Someone want to buy me his writing desk?

5. The Art of Creating a Ritual for What Matters Most.

6. The New York Times 1619 project has a podcast!

7. Artists and freedom.

8. Yes, INFJs Can Be Entrepreneurs.

9. Spotted in Kenya: A Baby Zebra With Polka Dots.

10. Wishing the World Could Be More Soft on The New York Times. “She expected to give birth on Christmas Day. What happened instead was too hard to explain.”

11. DHS Just Finally Recognized White Nationalism as a Major Terror Threat. “Its the first time the department has placed major emphasis on countering the threat of white nationalism coming from inside the U.S.”

12. Fat People Must Become a Priority to the Left.

13. Dark crystals: the brutal reality behind a booming wellness craze. “Demand for ‘healing’ crystals is soaring – but many are mined in deadly conditions in one of the world’s poorest countries. And there is little evidence that this billion-dollar industry is cleaning up its act.”

14. Trump Launches Bullshit Islamophobic Attack on Ilhan Omar Claiming She Danced on 9/11.

15. Aimee Mann – Drive [The Cars cover] – Live in Pleasantville, NY.

16. 1 in 16 U.S. women say their first sexual intercourse was rape.

17. Episode 1 of Unbelievable is hard to watch… and it should be. (video) Yes, the subject matter of this limited series is hard to watch, more so for those of us with trauma histories, but it was so good, in particular the women, their power and their vulnerability.

18. Ed Buck, Democratic Donor, Is Charged With Operating Drug House on The New York Times. “A third man suffered a methamphetamine overdose at the Los Angeles home of the longtime activist last week.”

19. J.Cole-produced documentary ‘Out of Omaha’ is a harrowing look at surviving systemic racism. I really wish more white people would shift the energy they spend in denial, resistance, and willful ignorance, clinging to the idea that they are good and deserving people, to opening their eyes and hearts to what is really happening in the world to black and brown people. There is no way to “get over it” when it is still happening.

20. SNL fires new hire Shane Gillis after recent homophobic and racist slurs surface.

21. Woman’s Thread Notes The Never-Discussed Symptom Of Depression And Everyone Has To Read It.

Gratitude Friday (on a Saturday)

1. We did a thing. After a brief moment spent considering putting solar panels on our house, and with all the incentives and rebates available right now, it was too good to pass up: an all electric, 2019 Nissan Leaf. I am grateful that we can buy a whole new car without much hassle, that we have excellent credit and the necessary funds and privilege up the wazoo. I’m glad that so many things came together to make this an easy choice that just so happens to be good for the environment too.

2. Allowing myself the support I need. I had weaned myself off CBD, which I was taking for work stress, since I wasn’t working anymore. Turns out work was distracting me from a bunch of ongoing anxiety triggers and until I am more healed from my burnout and more settled into this new phase of my life, I actually need even more support than ever dealing with hsp, anxiety, and c-ptsd (which as a tag team trigger some pretty serious depression). Trying these new gummies cause even though Charlotte’s Web costs more, their products are such high quality they are my go-to when I try anything new.

3. Practice. I know for a lot of people the work, the journey, the path is primarily external – about getting somewhere, making a change that can be seen, going a way that can be tracked, offering something tangible. If you look at me and try to see some evidence of a shift, right now it would be hard to find because it’s mostly internal, happening in a landscape only I can see. I can’t offer you any proof of anything. You are just going to have to trust me. Thank goodness for practice, for the support I get from writing and meditation and yoga and dog(s).

4. Kitchen counter love notes. I can always count on Eric to be there for me. He’s my soft place to land, the one who can make me laugh no matter what is happening, the dude who gets up early to feed and walk the dogs so I can get another hour of sleep.

5. My tiny family. Along with Eric, Sam and Ringo are such a comfort and good company, provide so much joy and the occasional comedic relief.

Bonus joy: sometimes skipping the walk and yoga and the gym so I can stay home in the morning and putter around, good TV (they just added a bunch of new episodes of Call the Midwife on Netflix and the second season of I’m Sorry was just as funny as the first), good books (still working my way through all of Maya Angelou’s autobiographies and finishing up Tea and Cake with Demons: A Buddhist Guide to Feeling Worthy by Adreanna Limbach), having all the laundry done and put away, bran muffins with dried raspberries, fresh raspberries (I had forgotten how yummy they are!), sunny but cooler days, wearing a sweatshirt and socks, feeling stronger, reading, taking naps, cooking, libraries and librarians.

 

Something Good

1. Talking Back to WW: Personal Body Stories on Be Nourished.

2. Calls for Kavanaugh’s Impeachment Come Amid New Misconduct Allegations on The New York Times. In related news, Democratic presidential candidates call for Brett Kavanaugh’s impeachment after new allegation.

3. On Shaun King by DeRay Mckesson. In related news, DeRay, attention, fame, fundraising, integrity, deflection, projection and the desperate need for us to actually focus on doing the work in front of us by Shaun King. Someone on Twitter called this feud “woke on woke crime.”

4. Tina Turner Is Having the Time of Her Life on The New York Times. “A Swiss chateau. A Broadway musical all about her. And absolutely nothing she has to do.”

5. Comedy Wildlife Photography Awards Finalists Prove that Nature Has a Sense of Humor.

6. The Abolish ICE Movement Explained.

7. FDA names 16 brands of dog food linked to canine heart disease. “The FDA is investigating more than 500 reports that appear to link dog foods that are marketed as ‘grain free’ to canine dilated cardiomyopathy.”

8. Bill Maher, James Cordon, and Fat-Shaming.

9. Michigan Police Officer Is Terminated After K.K.K. Application Was Found in His Home on The New York Times. “A prospective homebuyer found Confederate flags and a framed Ku Klux Klan application in the officer’s house in Holton, Mich.” My opinion: This is the appropriate response. Being a white supremacist should make you unemployable, in any field.

10. There Are No Nazi Memorials.

11. Meat May Be Murder, But Tofu Is Too. “In Brazil, land is being cleared at an alarming rate to plant every vegetarian’s favorite crop: Soy.”

12. To Hell With Y’all: Charlottesville Judge Rules Confederate Statues Will Stay.

13. In praise of Earth, Wind & Fire, purveyor of black excellence for a half-century.

14. New Hope, New Pain, Same Old Divorce on The New York Times. “As a queer woman, I fought for the right to be married. Now I’m fighting for the space to be human.”

15. The 100 Best Notebooks, As Tested by Strategist Editors.

16. Gorgeous, the song and the dancing.. (video)

17. 145 CEOs Call On Senate To Pass ‘Common-sense, Bipartisan’ Gun Laws.

18. Trump Administration Rolls Back Clean Water Protections on The New York Times. How is it that we don’t all just automatically agree that we need to keep our water and air safe, that they need to be protected so we can live?! How is this even a discussion?!

19. Victory by a high school swimmer disqualified for a ‘wedgie’ is reinstated by Alaska officials.

20. HSPs and Trauma.

21. This Routine Gyno Procedure Could Mean You Never Orgasm Again. This is terrifying!

22. Police choked and cuffed this teen after entering his home without a warrant — and they never charged him with a crime. (video)

23. The Log 2: Another Year. (video)

24. ‘People Actively Hate Us’: Inside the Border Patrol’s Morale Crisis on The New York Times. “Overwhelmed by desperate migrants and criticized for mistreating the people in their care, many agents have grown defensive, insular and bitter.”

25. “White People, Stop centering yourself”!

26. ‘Don’t Stop Believin” Goes On And On, Because We Need It To.

27. What The Inventories Of Various Emergency Services Look Like Over The World (30 Pics).

28. PS22 Choir sings “Peace” by O.A.R. (video)

Gratitude Friday

1. Fall. The actual first day of fall is a little over a week away and we still have days in the forecast calling for the upper 80s, but yesterday I wore long sleeves, long pants, and socks all day, and this morning when we woke up it was 51 degrees outside, The chrysanthemums and clematis are blooming and our tomatoes are finally producing, so I’m calling it early — it’s fall!

2. Cooking. I am really enjoying doing more cooking, trying new recipes, eating good food.

3. Flowers in the bathroom. Eric brought me home flowers this week. I haven’t had flowers all summer, except for my peonies and a bouquet from Chloe’. They changed the farmer’s market hours to later which kept me from getting there all summer, and after two gnat infestations the end of last summer and the beginning of this one, I was wary because flowers just feed the gnats, ensure they keep producing future generations. I missed the flowers.

4. Ringo. Since I’ve been home more, he’s been so sweet to me. Since he’s getting older, he’s getting easier to live with and easier to love. Had to sneak this next picture through a dirty window so I wouldn’t wake him up. This kind of peace was a long time coming and hard won. Used to be this boy had to be constantly entertained and monitored, especially in the backyard. He got into stuff, ate things he shouldn’t, dug holes, and barked. Now, with six years old just a few months away, he can take himself out and lounge in the sun, with only the occasional bark or roll in a dead worm, and I don’t have to worry he’s out there killing himself.

5. Sam. I was so stressed out about him last week — he slipped and fell in the kitchen twice and threw up his dinner one night. He’s almost ten years old, as old as any of our dogs have ever been, and the awareness that he’s going to die is always right there. He was the dog that took me the longest to bond with, he felt more like Eric’s dog for the first few years and I was just missing my Obi and Dexter, but now he’s my sweet shadow and when he goes I’m really going to miss him.

5. Eric. All the things he does to take care of our tiny family, laughing with him, how he appreciates the things I do, how committed he is to his colleagues and students, his kitchen counter love notes (see a whole collection of them on Instagram).

Bonus joy: Glazed lemon zucchini bread, zucchini gratin, grilled cheese, breakfast for dinner, leftovers, clean sheets on the bed, all the laundry done and put away, excellent credit, money in savings, a whole day with no plans, good movies (the new Mindy Kaling one on Amazon Prime, Late Night, was really good), good TV (I’ve been watching a lot of tiny house shows lately), good books (I’m finally reading the rest of Maya Angelou’s autobiographies), hanging out with Mikalina and Chloe’ (having friends who make you laugh, but also who you can cry with and say “I love you” and fully trust with your truth is a big deal), morning walks, teaching yoga, writing, naps.