Project Reverb prompt: “Five Moments | Tell us about five moments you don’t want to forget from 2013.”
- When Dexter came out that last day. I was sitting on the back step, Eric was playing in the yard with Sam, and Dexter had spent most of the morning in his crate, not feeling good at all. He came out, tail wagging, and stood on my leg, wanting me to pet him, which he hadn’t really wanted earlier. It was a brief moment of peace in an otherwise awful day. The sun was shining and we were together. Everything was okay.
- Dancing to “Amazing” by One EskimO in Laurie’s front yard. Looking up at the sky and knowing.
- Reading my second dohā at a retreat with Susan Piver. A dohā is a “spontaneous song of enlightenment,” a poem that comes to you without planning. I wrote my first at my first retreat with Susan, a collection of lines I’d written down as I took notes over the weekend that on the final morning clearly formed a poem when collected together. I didn’t want to force it on that second retreat, even though I hoped it would happen again, and it did.
- Being called “obese” by someone who was supposed to be helping me. The surge of feeling that came in that moment, the deep knowing that she was wrong, the disappointment that she hadn’t seen or heard me, couldn’t help me, followed by the certainty that I knew what to do, that I was my own expert, that I’d save myself, aware that somehow I had always known that.
- The Blue Lake hike I took with Eric and Sam. Knowing I could hike ten miles, not because I’d been sure at the start but because I did it.