Three Truths and One Wish

morningwalk1. Truth: I usually write these posts on Tuesdays, but I had a lot of other stuff to do yesterday. I didn’t forget, and actually I could have found the time, but I felt like I was already doing enough, got to a certain point in my day and knew that I needed to slow down, stop, rest, and I knew I could write today if I wanted. This is how my days work: I find time for the things I value, and sometimes things that matter have to wait.

2. Truth: I have a lot going on today too. I started by getting up at 5 a.m. like always, spent half an hour writing, took a shower, then taught a yoga class, and afterwards stopped at the store to pick up some lunch on my way to work at CSU where I’ve been ever since. I’m tired. I already sent an email to say Ringo and I won’t be making it to our training class tonight. Every day, every moment is about assessing my energy levels, checking in with myself to see where I’m at, asking my body how it’s doing and what it needs.

3. Truth: I’m learning to be gentle with myself. For so many years, I pushed and bullied, wore myself out, smashed myself to bits. The person I was would have never skipped a blog post or missed a training class. She also wouldn’t have agreed to substitute teach a yoga class unless she thought she could do it perfectly. The me of today is going to finish my work, go home and and change into some comfy clothes, enjoy what’s left of the sunshine while drinking a big glass of water, then heat up some of the casserole leftover from last night and park her butt on the couch, cuddle a few dogs and watch some TV.

One wish: May we listen to our hungers. May we trust ourselves to know what we need. May we nourish ourselves. May our efforts ease suffering, in ourselves and in the world.

8 thoughts on “Three Truths and One Wish

  1. aramati

    I love the implicit message about subbing even when you feel unsure. I definitely felt this when I subbed prenatal yoga last night. It was 3 of the students’ first prenatal class, and they were trying to figure out what prenatal yoga was like, and in one case, trying to get a feel for the studio. While I am upgrading my prenatal certification level, I feel like I’m in the stage of learning where I feel like I don’t know what I’m doing. But the students seemed to enjoy the class, and the one student checking out the studio seemed to like it and commented about how similar, yet different, it felt to her regular yoga class elsewhere.

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    1. jillsalahub Post author

      Me too, Frances. I think when I get a little more experience, I am going to offer some classes through video. Not sure exactly how that will look just yet, but I’ve had that idea too.

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  2. Jean-Nicole

    To not beat ourselves up, to treat ourselves as if we would treat another, to tune into the needs instead of the shoulds – someone once said to me, “don’t should all over yourself.” I love your kindness and the constant reminder to be gentle to ourselves. Your plate is overflowing, and still, you find time to reach those you don’t even know you are reaching. And, you make me want to get a doggie! What would it be like to cuddle on the couch with a furry friend? Sounds glorious.

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    1. jillsalahub Post author

      I’ve heard the “don’t should all over yourself” too. 🙂
      We’ve had dog trainers before suggest that you shouldn’t let dogs on the furniture or in your bed — that, the cuddling potential, is one of the reasons I got dogs!

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  3. Rita Ott Ramstad

    Oh gosh, Jill. I wish I were further in this. I’ve spent the whole week pushing past my limits, and I woke up at 3:00 on my second day of punishing migraine. Which, of course, only puts me further behind. So: I am going to a meeting with a client this morning (because if I miss it I cannot reschedule until after next week), but then I am coming home and resting. Thank you.

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    1. jillsalahub Post author

      Rita, I think finding a balance between effort and ease is going to always be a sticky issue for me. Just when I think I have it, I push too far again. At the very least, I no longer beat myself up for not being able to do everything. And as I was heading over here to respond to your comment, I read a quote I feel compelled to share with you: “You don’t need to do everything. Do what calls your heart; effective action comes from love. It is unstoppable, and it is enough.” ~Joanna Macy ❤

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