Gratitude Friday

decembersky02This post is a mashup of The Little Bliss List and Joy Jam, and as such is meant to celebrate: the little things that brought me hope and happiness this week, the sweet stuff of life, those small gifts that brought me joy this week. By sharing them, I not only make public my gratitude, but maybe also help you notice your own good stuff and send some positive energy out into the world.

1. We are still here. I don’t actually believe in dire catastrophic predictable “the world will end on this certain date and time” scenarios. I think think it will either come in a flash without warning, or be clearly on its way, coming at a slow creep but equally unstoppable, and I think that if it happens it will be kind of like how our individual deaths will come–as either a surprise, a shock, suddenly, or at the end of a long goodbye. And yet, I did today as I do when I wake up every morning and felt gratitude for still being here, for getting another chance to ease suffering in the world and in myself, to begin again.

2. Netflix and Hulu, TV on demand. I don’t want or need TV all the time, but when I am tired and need to rest on the couch, when sleeping is too much but reading would be too hard and I don’t want to stare at my toes or the wall, when I want someone to tell me a story, I want to be able to watch. Sometimes that might mean an important documentary like Half the Sky, and others it might mean something silly and slightly creepy like the entire three seasons of United States of Tara.

3. SNOW!!! We finally got some, only about four inches but so beautiful and cold and quiet. More, please.

4. Christmas Music and The Happy Holiday Hearth. Probably because of Dexter’s cancer and “what happened last Friday,” I am feeling extra raw, homesick and weepy this season, wishing for the long gone days of Christmas at Grandma’s Farm. Along with twinkly lights, classic holiday music sung by voices much loved but long gone and my fireplace dvd bring me comfort. (Don’t mock me until you’ve tried it–it’s all kinds of awesome).

happyholidayhearth5. Permission to take it easy. I’m at least a week behind on Reverb12 posts, my house is a mess, laundry needs done, the checkbook should have been balanced almost a month ago, I didn’t do any Christmas cards or bake, lots of people I normally give to this time of year might feel slighted, but I just don’t have it in me. I am honoring instead how hard I’ve been working this year, how much I’ve accomplished, how many times I tried and failed, how much is still left to do, and giving myself permission to rest, to give up, surrender, let go and just be.

Bonus Joy: Dexter is still here. Apparently, he plans on sticking around for Christmas, so I bought him presents yesterday, three new “babies.” This picture was taken on Sunday morning towards the end of our walk. His left eye is running, (a symptom of the tumor in his nose), so he looks sort of like a Goth dog.

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15 thoughts on “Gratitude Friday

  1. Sherry Richert Belul

    I, too, am happy we are still here. And that includes handsome Dexter! Thanks for taking the time to share the joys. You’re right: it is contagious. Feeling my own small blisses. And wanting that fireplace DVD!!! 🙂

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      1. Stephanie at Visible and Real

        Thank you. And I am. I’ve been diving into This I Know, doing a ton of (non-academic) writing, and looking forward to my weekthun at my local center next week.

        How about you? Did you get your Thursday of jammies and no obligations?

  2. pittsburghphd

    I am feeling the same way right now. There are cards left to write, laundry to do, and so much cleaning I can’t list it all here. What My mind, body, and spirit need most right now is rest, and I think that’s why I can’t get motivated. Every time I go to start a task, I feel compelled to make a cup of tea first. Maybe I should live like this more often. Sending you love and permission to be lazy from my lazy spot here across town. 🙂

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  3. Susie M

    Yes, #5. Permission to take it easy OR Permission to appreciate what you have already accomplished and no judgement or guilt about what lies unfinished, undone, or yet to do. SO important for us all. A key to peace within our souls, i believe!

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    1. jillsalahub Post author

      And I don’t know about you, Susie, but when I stop to check in with myself, to figure out who is saying I “should” do all the things on my list, it’s always me, which means I also can say “not today.”

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  4. mj

    #5
    I’m doing it, the “taking it easy” but I have been ungracious about the permission aspect. I have kicked and screamed like a crazy person, all sorts of resistance, all sorts of suffering. Ridiculous, I made my choice and still I argue with myself about it. Despite knowing this is the way it needed to be (for the first time in 5 decades: late or no cards, zero baking, only a few decorations, only one strand of lights outside, etc), despite knowing I am striving for the real meaning of this season: Peace, calm, love rather than a festive “show”….I have been none of peace,love and calm. The more I shed, try to shed, my old ways, the more I am left facing the truth: no peace, no calm. It’s been brutal this letting go, this “taking it easy”. I wonder now if all the years of “festive show” just aren’t a way to stuff the emptiness, that maybe I am the stocking needing to be filled with kindness, love, patience, compassion. Maybe that is what we all are, stockings waiting to be filled. Maybe with practice it will get easier. I hope my family sticks around long enough to find out. It’s been messy, all this striving for a simple Christmas season.

    And, as far as #1 goes, well I knew we’d still be here, because I wouldn’t be so lucky as to escape the work I have yet to do 🙂

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    1. jillsalahub Post author

      You were cracking me up, MJ, the image of you kicking and screaming like a crazy person–me too! I just have to keep reminding myself that no one is going to die if my house is still dirty tomorrow, but if I keep pushing myself, there will be consequences. Okay, you simmer down over there and I’ll promise to keep trying on my end 🙂

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  5. Lissa @ lafcustomdesigns

    I love you’re “take it easy” segment. I have been unable to catch the Christmas bug. My house is undecorated, there is no tree. I only have a few people to give presents to, so have taken care of that. There is change in the air … amazingly, I will be spending Christmas Eve with my former husband, his wife, two children, and hopefully both of our grown children. He said I was welcome Christmas Day also … and called me family today. We have come so far in 25 years! I try not to have regrets for what could have been, but sometimes it’s a challenge. Regardless, I am very fortunate.

    I am managing to keep up with Reverb ’12 only because I’m loving doing my creative interpretations. I’m due for the current 3-day segment today. I’m hoping to get that up tonight, but if not, will certainly have it done by tomorrow.

    I’m so thrilled you still have your Dexter. He looks like a wise old man in your image here. These furry friends teach us so much in living and in letting go.

    Happy Holidays, Jill … however you spend your time.
    laf

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    1. jillsalahub Post author

      That’s so great that you are spending the holidays with family, how ever that connection is constructed. I need to get over and catch up with your reverbing–not only am I not keeping up with writing, I’m missing reading everyone else’s! As for Dexter, I certainly never expecting him to see another Christmas, and I am so happy to have him! Wishing you a wonderful set of days, Lissa ♥

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