Three Truths and One Wish

1. Truth: The light this morning was dreamy. It was the first time I got to go on the morning walk in over a week. It was 27 degrees, almost a heatwave compared to the cold we’ve been having. The sky was so beautiful in places it almost made me cry with gratitude.

2. Truth: I can’t do everything. I know that must seem obvious to so many, but I still struggle with it. I try to figure out how to do it all, convinced that there’s some formula, that I’ll crack the code if I just keep working at it. And then something happens like the dryer stops working or I forget to buy puppy cookies at the feed store or I notice how badly the bathtub needs recaulked and I feel like I want to lie down and never get up.

3. Truth: The earlier in the day I can take a shower, the better. If I don’t, I do this thing where I schlep around the house in my purple fleece bathrobe doing “just this one more thing” and even though it might seem like I am getting a lot accomplished, really I’m stuck. It doesn’t feel good.

One Wish: On the days that feel hard, when we feel stuck or that there’s too much to do or when something as simple as the light of the morning sky makes us feel like crying, may we be gentle with ourselves.

 

9 thoughts on “Three Truths and One Wish

  1. lolshelley

    Oh Jill, this post resonates with me SO much. I can also relate the the schlepping around in my pyjamas. I feel totally overwhelmed at the moment by all the things I want/need to do in my own home and life but am so exhausted that I do nothing and then feel even more overwhelmed. Both my elderly father and my mother-in-law are struggling at the moment and are leaning very heavily on my husband and I and we are totally exhausted. Although we want to be there for them (and are), and are fortunate to be on holidays, these holidays were meant to be a time for us to recharge (after a stressful year) before embarking upon the new year. I feel a mix of frustration and anger at times as to the extra load we have had placed on our shoulders but then I feel guilty for feeling that way. Thank you for the reminder to be gentle with myself. x

    Reply
  2. Alane

    love the pictures. we had snow today and it’s cold. i can totally relate to your feelings. i know i can’t do it all, so i don’t (sometimes do anything….) which is not great either. balance is my word for 2015 so that’s what i’m going to strive for. 🙂 thank you for sharing & posting.

    Reply
    1. jillsalahub Post author

      What a brave word, Alane. Balance is so challenging because the center keeps shifting and you constantly are adapting. May you find your way not just through striving but also with ease. ❤

      Reply
  3. uniyogini

    This post really resonated with me too! At this time of year the cold, the snow, cloudy gray skies tend to suck the energy right out of me. Thank you for helping me see these wintery skies in my neighborhood (I live near the Poudre, too!) in a new light.

    Reply

I'd love to hear what you think, kind and gentle reader.

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s