Wishcasting Wednesday

from jamie's post

from jamie’s post

What do you wish for 2013?

For myself, I’m wishing for freedom: simplicity, space, ease, surrender, clarity, and openness. “The power or right to act, speak, or think as one wants without hindrance or restraint; liberty, independence; the state of not being imprisoned or enslaved; being physically unrestricted and able to move easily; self-determination, open, opportunity, play, joy.” I wish to feel free, to be free from and free to, to let go of habits and ways of being that no longer serve me, to embrace and embody my true nature, to practice radical self-acceptance, to keep my heart open.

freedomthanksgivingcrowFor Dexter, I wish an easy death. His nose bled a little today, reminding us that the cancer is still there, doing its thing, that he’s already been with us two months longer than predicted, and that even though he’s still having good days, at some point that is going to change and we are going to have to let him go. It’s not that I need him to have more time (unless he gets to stay forever, and I’d take that), but I do wish that whatever he has left to involve as little suffering as possible, and for his death to be easy. As for me, I won’t be ready no matter what.

snowdexterMy bigger, more general wish for 2013 is for suffering to ease, in myself and the world. May suffering of all kinds, all the tension and upset and pain and fear that occurs, may it lessen, relax, settle, quiet, dissolve, stop, end.

6 thoughts on “Wishcasting Wednesday

  1. Lissa @ lafcustomdesigns

    I love how the snow hangs on Dexter’s chin. And he is still watching the world. I took my sweet Kobi for a walk in the snow yesterday … he’s definitely a rough and tough big dog in a little dog’s body. See yesterday’s post if you have a minute! ;->

    I love the dragon on your desk. Made me smile. Bet it makes you smile too. ;->

    1. jillsalahub Post author

      Loved the pictures in your post from your walk in the snow with Kobi (although, have to admit that my dogs aren’t friendlies either, so I would have said “no” too–sometimes they are okay, but they can also be jerks). And the dragon isn’t mine, that’s a picture of Jamie Ridler’s desk (she hosts Wishcasting Wednesday). I have owls, monkeys, dogs, and Buddha on my desk 🙂

  2. Ekta

    Namaste Gill,

    I lost my angel baby 3 years back. He passes away easily in one day. We still miss him daily. Always missing him, always loving him, and thinking of him daily,
    with a smile on my face and tears in my heart.
    I hope the transition for Dexter will be easy. He is in my prayers.

    Take care.

    1. jillsalahub Post author

      Ekta, I’m so sorry for your loss. I lost my first pup (also to cancer) three years ago, so this experience sadly isn’t new to me. Sometimes when people ask me how many dogs I have, I almost say three, because even though my first is gone, I keep him close, keep loving him, just like you said. Thank you for your kind words.

      1. Ekta

        Namaste Jill,
        This loss feeling is new. I love his soul. And soul never dies. I know dep down in my heart he is born again and all i want to be safe, warm and loved. He is buried in our hearts. I want to adopt another dog but its very difficult for my mom as she loved him deep as her bones. Time is a good healer. Maybe one day we can adopt another angel and spoil him / her to the core. Dexter and you are in my prayers. Pls pass on some tights hugs and kisses to Dexter. He’s adorable. Take care.

      2. jillsalahub Post author

        I had two dogs when I lost the first, so it felt right to get another so the one left behind wouldn’t have to be the only dog. This essay, “We’re Getting Another Dog” explains exactly why, for me, there will always be another: http://thisibelieve.org/essay/68644/ But also, what I know, is that everyone has to wait until the time is right for them, and some losses feel so big, so hard that it takes a long time. P.S. Dexter says thanks for the love.

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