What do you wish for 2013?
For myself, I’m wishing for freedom: simplicity, space, ease, surrender, clarity, and openness. “The power or right to act, speak, or think as one wants without hindrance or restraint; liberty, independence; the state of not being imprisoned or enslaved; being physically unrestricted and able to move easily; self-determination, open, opportunity, play, joy.” I wish to feel free, to be free from and free to, to let go of habits and ways of being that no longer serve me, to embrace and embody my true nature, to practice radical self-acceptance, to keep my heart open.
For Dexter, I wish an easy death. His nose bled a little today, reminding us that the cancer is still there, doing its thing, that he’s already been with us two months longer than predicted, and that even though he’s still having good days, at some point that is going to change and we are going to have to let him go. It’s not that I need him to have more time (unless he gets to stay forever, and I’d take that), but I do wish that whatever he has left to involve as little suffering as possible, and for his death to be easy. As for me, I won’t be ready no matter what.
My bigger, more general wish for 2013 is for suffering to ease, in myself and the world. May suffering of all kinds, all the tension and upset and pain and fear that occurs, may it lessen, relax, settle, quiet, dissolve, stop, end.