March | 2015 | Open Space Practice, (AKA: A Thousand Shades of Gray)

1. Fresh eggs, glazed lemon zucchini bread, lemonade, sweet potato and black bean quesadillas, fresh pineapple, apples and peanut butter.

2. New computer glasses, so I don’t have to lean in towards the screen and make my forearms ache.

3. Signs of spring: bird song in the early still dark of morning, the deep yellow of forsythia and daffodil and dandelions, green grass.

4. Practice: writing, meditation, yoga, and dog.

5. Ringo Blue and sweet Sam. They played and played in the backyard yesterday.

Bonus Joy: Roses from Eric, my fifth year of a Superior ranking on my annual evaluation at CSU, a boss who loves working with me and says so, my 21st year in a row of a Superior ranking as a wife, a guest post on courage and self, knowing when it’s time to stop working and rest, ease and peace around food and movement, knowing what isn’t working and being able to let it go, lunch with friends, that Eric was able to pop his dislocated fingertip back in himself before I even knew it had happened, lunch with good friends, the good chocolate, jellyfish and chickens.

“Just because,” he said.

1. Truth: Each day has its own energy. You can either fight it or “flow with the go.” Today’s energy seems to be “you really aren’t going to get a lot of new things done, so relax and be happy with what you’ve already accomplished.” Okay, Tuesday. Okay.

2. Truth: I seem to be having a run of good luck. I was invited to do a guest post for a blogger and a series I have loved as a reader, I was awarded a Superior ranking on my annual evaluation at CSU (fifth year in a row, the highest ranking you can get), Eric bought me flowers “just because,” and the sun is out.

3. Truth: Since I stopped dieting and overexercising, I feel so much better. I hadn’t realized until recently how much the cycle of starving and binging, pushing and punishing my body was ruining my health, my overall sense of wellbeing. That plus stress was making me miserable. I’m a bit heavier now, but I feel good.

One wish: May we tune into the energy of our body and our experience, and rather than resisting, running away, or ignoring what arises, may we open our hearts and allow what is.