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Gratitude Friday


1. Morning walks. I’m in charge of all the walking for the next few days while Eric is in Oregon visiting with his parents. I’m so grateful my knees are doing better and I can walk without completely wrecking myself.

2. Blooms. Our vegetable garden did not love the cool, wet, long spring we had, but the flowers and strawberries sure did.

3. Being able to rest. Just when I think I’m starting to get my energy back, I get knocked flat again. Burnout is no joke.

4. Practice and joyful movement. These are the two things I can consistently do, and are helping me to feel better.

After a fitness class at the gym, my face was as shiny and red as the car I parked next to

Sam likes to “help” me meditate

5. My tiny family. Even though he’s not here, I can text Eric whenever I want, and the boys have been good company.

He carried her for two miles this morning

Bonus joy: Good food, going to bed early, good TV (watching HGTV’s Good Bones), a big glass of cold clean water, Ricola Lemon Mint throat drops, Wild Writing with Laurie and Mikalina and Chloe’, getting a tour of Carrie’s garden, knowing I can even when it’s hard, teaching yoga, aqua aerobics, sitting in the sauna, Pilates, air conditioning.

Something Good

From my garden

1. Why INFJs Struggle With Major Life Changes (And How To Deal). This post is perfectly timed for me. The poem at the end though…

2. Wisdom from Jena Schwartz, a few lines from her most recent newsletter: “As I sat down with my coffee, these are the words that floated down: What we can do. I thought it would be a list. The list wound up having just one item: 1. Be present.” Amen.

3. You Will Lose Everything by Jeff Foster, which Laurie Wagner reminded me of at exactly the moment I needed to hear it again.

4. 7 Tips For Introverted Entrepreneurs To Succeed In An Extroverted World.

5. Good stuff from Austin Kleon: Finding something new to say, and Found notes to myself, and You are fine without advice and suggestions.

6. 10 Quick Questions that Will Change the Way You Think Today. These work really well as prompts for journaling.

7. What It’s Really Like Being a Highly Sensitive Person.

8. YA literature has more LGBTQ characters than ever. Here are 5 books to read.

9. They Are Concentration Camps — and They Are Also Prisons. In related news, Open Letter From An Ex-Border Patrol Agent, and U.S. Border Patrol Finds 4 Bodies, Including 3 Children, Near Rio Grande In Texas, and At least 24 immigrants have died in U.S. custody under the Trump administration. Immigrant detention has also become a big business, here’s who’s profiting the most (video), and A firsthand report of ‘inhumane conditions’ at a migrant children’s detention facility, and Ocasio-Cortez Calls Migrant Detention Centers ‘Concentration Camps,’ Eliciting Backlash on The New York Times, and ‘There Is a Stench’: No Soap and Overcrowding in Detention Centers for Migrant Children on The New York Times, and ‘Guats,’ ‘Tonks’ and ‘Subhuman Shit’: The Shocking Texts of a Border Patrol Agent.

What can you do about it? 5 Ways to Support Undocumented Folks, and There’s No Excuse for Mistreating Children at the Border. Here’s What To Do About It. on The New York Times, and What You Can Do to Close the Camps, and Advocates say the fastest way to help immigrants separated from their children: Post their bail, and How You Can Support Detained Immigrant Families, and How You Can Help End Child Detention Horrors TODAY.

10. Ravelry, a popular social network for knitters, places ban on Trump supporters.

11. PS22 Chorus performs “Red Ribbon” with Madilyn Bailey. (video) In related news, PS22 performs “Jar of Hearts” with Christina Perri. (video)

12. Mary Lambert: Grief Creature on Kickstarter. “Grief Creature is my life’s work, my masterpiece, a break-up album to shame, an ode to mental illness, a love letter to hope.”

13. Meet Joy Harjo, The First Native American U.S. Poet Laureate.

14. You Are Doing Something Important When You Aren’t Doing Anything on The New York Times. “We need to rest, to read, to reconnect. It is the invisible labor that makes creative life possible.”

15. Cities Nationwide Refuse To Cooperate With ICE’s Mass Deportation Raids. In related news, Trump Says He’ll Delay Deportation Operation Aimed at Undocumented Families on The New York Times, and ‘We Have No Choice’: Acting ICE Director Defends Planned Immigration Raids, and ICE Raids to Deport Migrant Families Set to Begin Sunday in 10 US Cities, and ICE Is Expected to Begin Operation on Sunday Targeting 2,000 Immigrant Family Members on The New York Times, and Trump postpones ICE’s planned deportation raids in 10 big cities.

16. Trump Sat Down With Time Magazine and Then Threatened a Reporter With Prison. In related news, Donald Trump is trying to gaslight us on E. Jean Carroll’s account of rape, and Trump Voters Driven by Fear of Losing Status, Not Economic Anxiety, Study Finds on The New York Times, and Transcript: ABC News’ George Stephanopoulos’ exclusive interview with President Trump, and Donald Trump assaulted me in a Bergdorf Goodman dressing room 23 years ago. But he’s not alone on the list of awful men in my life.

17. Crocheter Uses Her Skills To Turn Dried Leaves Into Works Of Art.

18. Review: ‘Toni Morrison: The Pieces I Am’ powerfully profiles beloved writer.

19. This kid’s goal is to get EVERY single dog in the U.S. adopted. (video)

20. Carnegie medal goes to first writer of colour in its 83-year history. “Dominican-American Elizabeth Acevedo wins prestigious children’s award for The Poet X, while Jackie Morris takes illustration prize for The Lost Words.”

21. If Meditation Is Not Your Thing, Try a Walk in the Woods. “Hiking is a near-perfect combination of elements known to relax us, raise our alertness, elevate our self-esteem, and physically prepare us for true rest afterward.” Even better, adopt a dog and take them with you.

22. Warren’s Guidelines for White People. If you are white, I absolutely expect you to read this and TRY.

23. 50 Amazing Books By Black Authors From The Past 5 Years.

24. ‘Starving’ Polar Bear Wanders Into Siberian Town.

25. Japanese Company Creates Sea Creature Teabags That “Come Alive” Inside Your Cup.

26. The Weirdness, Wonder, and Terror of the Contemporary Zoo. “Molly Reid on the Way We Use Language Changes the Way We See Animals.”

27. Police Are Still Killing Unarmed Black People. “The Hands Up Act could do something about it.”

28. Why Juneteenth Should Be a National Holiday. “The 152-year-old tradition launched by formerly enslaved people has emerged as a celebration of freedom.”

29. The hired guns of Instagram. “Companies can’t advertise on social media — so they have female influencers do it for them.” So gross.

30. Chennai water crisis: City’s reservoirs run dry. India’s sixth largest city “runs out” of water.

31. Father Of Sandy Hook Victim Wins Defamation Suit Against Hoaxers. “Lenny Pozner’s 6-year-old son Noah died in the shooting. Two authors wrote a book saying it never happened.”

32. Felony Charges Dismissed Against Miami Cop Who Shot Black Caregiver With Arms Raised.

33. Kyle Kashuv, pro-gun Parkland teen, loses Harvard acceptance for past N-word use.

34. Mitch McConnell Says Obama’s Election Means We Don’t Need Reparations. “‘I don’t think reparations for something that happened 150 years ago for whom none of us currently living are responsible is a good idea,’ McConnell said.” Sure we elected a Black president, but immediately after we elected a white supremacist fascist, so Obama doesn’t prove anything. In related news, Ta-Nehisi Coates Clapped Back at Mitch McConnell for Saying ‘No One Alive’ Is Liable for Reparations. So We Came Up With a List.

35. Roxane Gay and Debbie Millman Are Girlfriends, Invite Us to Consider Love Might Not Be a Lie???

36. 10 Things I’ve Learned About Gaslighting As An Abuse Tactic. This article is almost four years old, but still a good read.

37. I Restore ‘Unrestorable’ Photos, And Here’s The Result.

38. Julien Baker – “Appointments.” (video)

Gratitude Friday

1. The season of blooms. It has been a cool, rainy spring, and the flowers have loved it. So have the strawberries.

2. Practice. I’m getting more and more clear that I am in recovery from full on burnout (“a state of emotional, physical, and mental exhaustion caused by excessive and prolonged stress”), and practice is helping me not spin out about it.

3. Healing, and trusting that I know what to do. Besides my current state of burnout, which requires spending some time every day in a dark quiet spot among other things, I’ve been dealing with the pain of osteoarthritis in my knees (as well as chronic tendinitis and some meniscus tearing) for the past four years, so bad that I take a THC gummy every night just so I can sleep. I’ve tried everything, even started to think I maybe needed surgery in one knee. Then Eric asked me to sign up for a pretty intense small group fitness class at the gym with him. He’s training for a Tough Mudder and I have trouble getting more intense cardio now that I can’t run anymore, even though I’m super active. Starting out, I wasn’t sure if I’d be able to do it, thought it would hurt or even wreck my knees. It feels like some kind of miracle, and was certainly something I didn’t know, but this particular intensity and variation of movement makes my knees feel better! Eric found this article that explains the phenomenon: If your knee hurts, keep exercising, says expert.

4. I don’t have a job. Nine years ago, I got out of a horribly toxic work situation and had my first summer off. When I went back to my job in the fall, I expected things to be better. While some things were, (like I no longer had to constantly engage with an abusive narcissist), other hard things stayed the same, (like the unsustainable workload and the stress that caused). I tried for nine years to make it work, but during that time I also put effort towards a backup plan, giving myself other options. When it became clear that not only was I not having any fun anymore but the work was impacting my health and wellbeing in a negative way, I knew I needed to shift. I’m still in recovery mode, but it was the absolute right choice. I also know my choice was a direct result of my privilege.

5. My tiny family. I really would rather spend time with them than anyone else.

Bonus joy: Wild Writing with Laurie, hanging out with Mikalina, texting with Chloe’, plans to see Andrea Gibson with Carrie, dinner with Chelsey and Jon, aqua aerobics, Pilates, teaching yoga, how good Sam is doing after injuring his back last year, how much of a kid Ringo can still be at 5.5 years old, good TV (how much HGTV can one human watch?!), a cool rainy day when I didn’t really want to get out of my pjs anyway, bread, strawberries, a cold glass of clean water, a warm shower, forgetting what day it is, taking a long nap.

Something Good

From our garden

1. The Biggest Little Farm [Official Trailer]. We saw this movie yesterday, and really liked it. In related news, Why Breakout Documentary ‘The Biggest Little Farm’ Didn’t Sell to Netflix, from Poop to Nuts and the Apricot Lane Farms website.

2. What is your Trauma Protector Profile? an online quiz from Nona Jordan. “Your Trauma Protector Profile describes the way that residual trauma or toxic stress unconsciously prevents you from moving forward with meaningful change in your life or your business. There are 5 different Profiles: take the quiz to see which one describes you and receive holistic strategies for healing to move forward with your biggest intentions.”

3. 3 Types Of Burnout That Will All But Kill You.

4. 4 Pitfalls Of The INFJ Personality (And How To Avoid Them).

5. Susanna Bauer’s Instagram account where she posts pictures of her art, particularly crocheted leaves.

6. Praxis of Liberation, a workshop being offered by Desiree Adaway in Seattle and Denver/Boulder.

7. IF YOU CARE ABOUT WHAT TRUMP IS DOING AT THE BORDER, you need to read and share this thread.

8. How Colorado Halved Abortion and Teen Birth Rates. “The decline is happening across the country, and it’s about more than just contraceptives.”

9. Michigan Department Of Corrections To Pay $860K To Family Of Woman Whose Suicide Prison Guards Bet On.

10. And How Are the Children?: Protecting Our Black Queer Youth at All Costs.

11. ‘Family is people that love and support you, it’s not always your bloodline.’ (video) “Travis was disowned by his parents at 17 for being gay. Now he works to help others at the same LGBTQ+ org that saved him from homelessness.”

12. Costco shooting: Man killed by off-duty officer had an intellectual disability, cousin says. Whatever happened to this officer and his son was NO reason to murder someone.

13. This Bracelet From Amazon Shocks You If You Eat Too Much Fast Food Or Spend Too Much Money. I don’t believe in shock collars for dogs, so this seems like a stupid idea.

14. The Youngest Child Separated From His Family at the Border Was 4 Months Old on The New York Times. In related news, An Expert on Concentration Camps Says That’s Exactly What the U.S. Is Running at the Border and Teen Mom And Prematurely Born Baby Neglected At Border Patrol Facility For 7 Days.

15. Great British Bake Off winner Nadiya Hussain has suffered with anxiety ever since being severely bullied at school. (video)

16. The severe floods soaking the Midwest and Southeast are not letting up.

17. Watch #AskAlexa help Tig Notaro identify Julie Bowen. This video series is hilarious.

18. Tales Of The City co-stars read Armistead Maupin’s Letter To Mama. (video) “More than 30 years after it was published, Armistead Maupin’s Letter To Mama is still so powerful that Laura Linney, Ellen Page, and their Tales Of The City co-stars can barely get through reading it without crying.”

19. Wild Elephant Brings Her New Baby To Meet The People Who Saved Her Life. “It’s been eight years, but she still remembers how they helped her.” In related news, Every night this orphaned baby elephant sleeps next to a guy who makes him feel safe (video).

20. “Booksmart” is an Earnest, Affirming Fantasy of Feelings.

21. “Chasing Butterflies” (Song for my dog). (video) “This is a song I wrote for my dog ‘Keys’ who got diagnosed with Lymphoma. He passed away Monday, November 28, 2016.” We lost our first dog, Obi, to lymphoma.

22. The gift of a foster parent. (video) “When Aurora, Colo., middle school math teacher Finn Lanning learned his 13-year-old student Damien, who was in foster care, needed a kidney transplant, the confirmed bachelor decided to do something: become a foster parent.”

23. Recipe I want to try: toasted marshmallow milkshake from (surprise, surprise) Smitten Kitchen.

24. Handwritten 19th-Century Color Guide Poetically Describes Where Shades Are Found in Nature.

25. Baby flamingo dancing in the water. (video) Who knew baby flamingos were so fluffy and ridiculous and perfect?

26. 6 Ways to Teach Yoga With Less Cultural Appropriation. Want to know what it looks like to teach yoga with MORE cultural appropriation (i.e. the act of taking or using things from a culture that is not your own, especially without showing that you understand or respect this culture, oftentimes with the intent of gaining unearned social or economical capital)? Check out Noga Movement, where they take an over 2500 year old practice and strip it of everything they don’t like so they can repackage it how they want and make some money off of it.

27. Target Cash Registers Back Online After Chaotic Nationwide Tech Failure.

28. Taraji P. Henson Spoke To Congress On Black Mental Health: ‘We Don’t Even Talk About It.’

29. I’m Gay – Eugene Lee Yang. (video) “Eugene comes out as gay in his original, deeply personal music video, featuring music by ODESZA.”

30. Central Park 5 prosector Linda Fairstein melts down over ‘When They See Us’ backlash. “Fairstein has had nearly two decades to learn from her role in the Central Park Five tragedy. Instead, she sees herself as the victim of a smear job.” In related news, Ken Burns wants all of us to remember Donald Trump’s extreme response to the Central Park Five case. (video)

31. This Guy Photoshopped Himself Into His Childhood Pics To Hang Out With His Younger Self.

32. Tina Turner: What’s Love Got to Do With It?

33. KCPD poured out grandmother’s ashes in dirt during arrest; family seeks apology.

34. The U.S. white majority will soon disappear forever.

35. New Report Suggests ‘High Likelihood of Human Civilization Coming to an End’ Starting in 2050. In related news, White House blocked intelligence agency’s written testimony calling climate change ‘possibly catastrophic.’

36. New video shows a deranged cop threatening to shoot a Black mother dead because her 4-year-old toddler “stole” a Barbie from a dollar store. In related news, Family to sue Phoenix PD for $10 million over officers’ response to shoplifting incident, police respond, and Jay-Z’s Roc Nation Announces Plans To Help Phoenix Couple Involved In Excessive Force Case, and Phoenix Mayor Apologizes After Police Draw Gun On Family After Child Takes Doll.

37. Knox County Sheriffs Detective Grayson Fritts – also a pastor – calls for the government to arrest and execute LGBTQ People. (video) In related news, Pastor says he wishes ‘every homo would die’ at Make America Straight Again and ‘Make America Straight Again’ conference held on Pulse shooting anniversary.

38. ‘Horrific and Barbaric’: Here’s What We Know About the Human Rights Crisis in Sudan. In related news, Everything You Need To Know About The Violent Massacre Happening In Sudan.

39. ‘They Were So Beautiful’: Remembering Those Murdered In Orlando.

40. what if you already knew? The more people who can make this shift and thus allow it for others, the better: “I’ve been experimenting with foods and movement and rest and self-care, and taking a moment to think about how each thing I try makes me feel. And if I feel good, then I keep doing it. If I don’t feel good, I stop.”

41. Kappa Alpha Psi Brother Opens Wellness Studio in Brooklyn That Helps Black Men Deal With Anxiety and Depression.

42. Rare, “rainbow” blanket octopuses were caught on camera off the coast of Romblon, Philippines. (video) No matter what you think you know, you don’t know everything.

43. An Arizona Teacher Helped Migrants. Jurors Couldn’t Decide if It Was a Crime. On The New York Times.

44. A Black, Queer, Homeless Portlander Was Found Hanging from a Tree. Police Say It’s Suicide. Her Family Disagrees.

45. Kamau Bell: Standing Rock changed how I see America.

46. The Key to a Perfect Summer Is Making Absolutely Zero Plans.

47. Fatphobia Is Ruining My Female Friendships.

48. Writer Roxane Gay talks about conveying queer representation through her work, the critical reception of “World of Wakanda” and the songs that make her feel proud. (video)

49. Not seeing myself in any of my high school reading changed me more than you’d think.

50. A Nike Store In London Received Backlash After Installing Plus Size Mannequins.

51. On Alabama’s Dark History of Brutalizing Black Women’s Bodies.

52. Embassies worldwide are defying Trump & flying the Pride flag without permission.

53. The Best New Podcasts of 2019.

54. The FBI Admits Black Lives Matter Was Never a Threat. It’s White People You Should Be Worried About.

55. What 10,000 Steps Will Really Get You. “A clever bit of marketing has obscured the more nuanced nature of human well-being.”

56. NYPD Union Lawyers Claim Eric Garner Would’ve Died Anyway Due to Obesity. WTF?! Apparently now fatphobia justifies murder…

Gratitude Friday (on a Saturday)

1. Peony season. Mine are blooming, and there are so many blooms! This year was also a good one for my roses.

2. Strawberry season. In these first weeks of that harvest, we can barely eat them fast enough. So far we’ve also made Strawberries and Cream Biscuits and Strawberry Cream Pie.

3. Morning walks. Ringo cracked one of his pads, so he had to walk for about a week with a sock boot his dad made him — so cute! At Sam’s vet appointment, we found out he’d lost FIVE pounds — when we had to restrict how much he walked because of his back injury, he’d put on a little extra weight, so we cut his food back, but then he also got back to his regular exercise, and now he’s down to his young man fighting weight. He also on the regular weirdly loses 3-4 pounds every summer and then gains it back over the winter.

4. Colorado sky. This was the view from our front porch yesterday morning.

5. My tiny family. It’s been really nice to be with just them, lazy like summer, taking walks and naps and hanging out in the backyard.

Bonus joy: Hanging out and writing with Mikalina, finally making some progress cleaning and decluttering the house, being almost over my cold, watching TV shows about tiny homes with Eric, knowing it’s okay to go slow, teaching yoga, aqua aerobics, sitting with Eric in the sauna, working out really hard and having my knees actually feel better as a result, good TV, knowing that even if I don’t actually sleep I’m allowed to go into a dark and quiet room and just hang out by myself for a bit taking a “nap,” that Ringo is the kind of dog who is fearful but totally compliant at the vet (because a lot of Heelers can be pretty grumpy and mean under those conditions) and how much his vet loves him (she has three Heelers herself), hearing back that his blood work results look “perfect,” clean sheets.

Something Good

From our garden

1. Meditation: Sitting with Your Basic Goodness from Zen Habits.

2. Good stuff from Lion’s Roar: Is Buddhism a religion, philosophy, way of life, or science of mind?, and Where Buddhism & Yoga Meet, and How to Meditate Every Day, and How to Start a Home Meditation Practice.

3. On Trend: Make Mine Green on SF Girl.

4. How To Protect Yourself From Other People’s Negative Emotions.

5. On Whitewashing In Travel.

6. Nike’s Plus Size Mannequins Uncover the Truth About Weight Stigma from Dances with Fat.

7. 4 Struggles Of Being The Only INFJ In Your Family.

8. 7 Things Standing Between You and Joy on Be More With Less.

9. You Will Never Get The Truth Out Of A Narcissist.

10. I work in the environmental movement. I don’t care if you recycle. “Stop obsessing over your environmental ‘sins.’ Fight the oil and gas industry instead.”

11. 40 Rare Photos of Prince Defining Cool Through the Decades. “A tribute to the late music icon on what would have been his 61st birthday.”

12. Opting out of black trauma: Why I couldn’t finish When They See Us.

13. The Last Black Man in San Francisco | Official Trailer HD. This looks so good.

14. strawberries and cream biscuits, a recipe from Smitten Kitchen that I tried yesterday with strawberries from our garden — it was so good.

15. 5 Arrested After Homophobic Attack On London Bus. In related news, Five Arrested in London Bus Attack on Two Lesbians on The New York Times, and Parents Completely Disown Their Daughter After Discovering She Is A Lesbian.

16. UN official blasts US abortion laws as ‘gender-based violence against women’.

17. How Society Gaslights Survivors of Narcissists, Sociopaths, and Psychopaths (A Guide for Therapists, Law Enforcement and Loved Ones).

18. Smash the Wellness Industry on The New York Times. “Why are so many smart women falling for its harmful, pseudoscientific claims?”

19. Watch this congressional candidate prove it’s faster to buy an assault rifle than a cup of coffee. (video)

20. Just So We’re Clear: Black Mothers Aren’t to Blame for High Infant Mortality.

21. American hunter in viral photo of slain giraffe is “proud to hunt.” IMHO, hHunting simply for sport, for trophies, is gross.

22. ICE Agents Left 5-Year-Old Children in a Parked Van for 39 Hours. “And the federal government will no longer fund English classes or legal aid for unaccompanied minors.” In related news, Trump Administration Cancels English Classes, Soccer, Ping-Pong, Legal Aid for Migrant Children in U.S. Shelters.

23. Trading the Noisy Gay Bar Scene for the Knitting Circle on The New York Times. “Many gay men in New York are looking for alternative ways to socialize. A look at the surprising revival of the knitting circle.”

24. Why You Can’t Ever Call an Enslaved Woman a “Mistress.”

25. The Case Against Hope from Roxane Gay on The New York Times. “I’m not trying to depress anyone — especially recent graduates — but things are really bad, and what we need to do is act.”

26. Students Come Up With An Ingenious And Funny Graph To Stop People From Feeding Their Overweight Campus Cat.

27. For farmers, record flooding and a wet spring mean many fields can’t be planted.

28. This woman’s hilarious video about ‘straight pride’ is so funny even straight people are sharing it.

29. As The First Black Woman To Own A Colorado Cannabis Dispensary, Here’s Why I’m Supporting Sen. Kirsten Gillibrand’s Marijuana Legalization Plan.

30. Alabama Mayor Suggests ‘Killing Out’ the LGBTQ Community in Deleted Facebook Post. This headline is a bit misleading. What he actually said is “We live in a society where homosexuals lecture us on morals, transvestites lecture us on human biology, baby killers lecture us on human rights and socialists lecture us on economics!…The only way to change it would be to kill the problem out. I know it’s bad to say but with out [sic] killing them out there’s no way to fix it.”

31. Swimming May Slow Down Aging By Decades. In what feels like related news, Gardening could be the hobby that helps you live to 100.

32. So, Sam Oosterhoff, you want to make abortion ‘unthinkable’? Here’s where to start.

33. Having a full-fledged conversation with Daddy. (video) This is so cute, I can’t stop watching it.

34. This transgender pastor started his own church in the South. (video)

35. German Circus Uses Holograms Instead Of Live Animals For A Cruelty-Free Magical Experience.

36. What do you see when you look at black boys? The cast of Ava DuVernay’s “When They See Us” weighs in. (video)

37. 30 Of The Funniest Dog Thoughts That Dog Owners Will Understand Too Well.

Gratitude Friday

1. Hanna Farm. It’s the name of our neighborhood, which in the 1800s was a farm where they raised rye and something else I can’t remember. This picture is the field at the end of our street. I love living here — so close to all the good parks and hiking, only about a mile from Old Town, only six blocks from one of my favorite humans, just down the road from Beaver’s Market, and super close to CSU (which doesn’t matter anymore since I don’t work there!).

2. Things that give me hope. I try to practice the Buddhist principle of letting go of both hope and fear, one pulling you into some imagined experience you believe will be exactly what you want and the other causing you to run away from something you think will be bad, both states pulling you out of the current moment, distracting you from what’s really going on, taking you out of your actual experience. That said, sometimes I need to hope. I read a line in a story in The Sun magazine yesterday that said, “just because it is all so very, very unfair does not mean there is not still great hope in the world” and it made me feel better about the state of things. Then there was a report of a swarm of ladybugs so big it registered on the National Weather Service radar, and then this morning in one of the ponds, this waterlily that typically produces 1-3 flowers has 11 blooms.

3. Morning walks. This morning will be our last along the river. It is rising because of snow melt and the flooding is predicted to be some of the worst this time around, but the real reason we’ll have to avoid this area until much later this summer is because of the mosquitoes.

4. The light this morning was extra special.

5. My tiny family. For some reason, I didn’t take many pictures of them this week.

Bonus joy: bird song in the morning, hummingbirds flying over our yard, my peonies getting ready to bloom, long naps, strawberries from our garden, hanging out with Mikalina and Chloe’, good TV, good books, good music, clean sheets, having nothing on my schedule so I can do whatever I want.