#reverb15: Replenishment

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Prompt: “How can you replenish your (physical, mental, spiritual and/or emotional) resources? What do you need most of all at this moment?”

I know the answer to this, even as I resist it. Step one is to let go of my attachment to external permission or approval. I absolutely need to stop seeking what I need from “out there.” Even if everyone, every single human on the planet, supported and liked and agreed with what I was doing, it wouldn’t be the right reason for doing any of it. I have to trust myself, be myself. I have to stop polling the whole universe for some sort of consensus when I determine what to do next, how to spend my day, how to live my life. I need to stop abandoning myself.

I also need to find a balance between effort and ease, between what I offer and what I receive. Instead of denying myself, restricting and starving, I have to nourish myself too, make sure I am fed in every way that I am hungry. It’s not selfish. It’s necessary, essential. I can have a new bathroom. I’m allowed to buy new towels for said bathroom, even get rid of the old ones. I’m allowed to replace the throw blanket Ringo chewed holes in so I have something nice for myself when I take a nap or watch TV or read a book, things that I am allowed to do and to enjoy. I have the right to care for myself, to feed and to cherish myself. I can trust that choices made from this truth are a manifestation of love, and the world needs more of that, however it can get it.

10 thoughts on “#reverb15: Replenishment

  1. Lisa Sadikman

    Such thoughtful responses Jill. This really resonated with me: “…I have to nourish myself too, make sure I am fed in every way that I am hungry. It’s not selfish.” xo

    Reply
    1. jillsalahub Post author

      Isn’t it funny how we do that? Deny ourselves, think it’s selfish to give to ourselves in EXACTLY the same way we’d do for others without even questioning it? Silly humans. ❤

      Reply

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