Message from the Universe

I confess, I haven’t been feeling that great. I think it’s the crash that always happens at the very beginning of any break from school, from work. I’ve typically been pushing so hard, going so fast, that when the moment finally comes when I can do what I want, go my own speed, my initial response is to collapse altogether.

But that’s okay. I am trusting the wisdom of my body right now, and if that means I spend the whole afternoon on the couch, that’s perfectly fine. Good things can happen there too. Plans can be made, rest is had, time is spent noticing and contemplating. Today I watched another episode of Call the Midwife, and it made the whole day worth it, all of it leading up to this one nugget of pure truth.

There is a greater gift than the trust of others, and that is trust in oneself. Some might call it confidence, others name it faith, but if it makes us brave, the label doesn’t matter for it’s the thing that frees us to embrace life itself. ~Season 2, Episode 2

This has been the message for me recently: Trust yourself. Trust my own, innate wisdom. Have faith that my body knows, that my heart knows, that my instincts and my gut and my intuition can be trusted — that each part of me has its own intelligence if I would only listen, give it mindful attention, trust that I know what to do, and know that I won’t abandon myself.

The only meaningful relationship is the one you have with yourself. Are you in love yet? ~Byron Katie

I’m not all the way there yet, kind and gentle reader, but I’m sure working on it. What about you?

4 thoughts on “Message from the Universe

  1. Stacy @bklynstacy

    Beautiful. And a lot to think about. I’ve always been a little bit confused by the way people call me so “brave”—merely for surviving the series of losses and heartbreaks that have defined my last decade—and your words tell me why. “Brave”is an attribute that makes me think of warriors, of getting bigger than my fears. Which is not what these years have felt like at all; the opposite, in fact. But faith. Yes. Confidence that I would come through, that things would be better at some point, that there is more to learn and more to live. Yes, yes. Those things I have. And your words are making me see that that has been gift aplenty. “Brave” is a mantle I can’t wear. But confident in my faith that all of it is worth living? Yes. Be gentle with yourself, Jill. There is wisdom in that alone, couch or no couch. xo

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    1. jillsalahub Post author

      This makes me think of something I was reading this morning, in Radical Acceptance by Tara Brach. She said “Clearly recognizing what is happening inside us, and regarding what we see with an open, kind and loving heart, is what I call Radical Acceptance.” So yes, faith and confidence, but for me, also acceptance — couch or no couch. 🙂

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  2. garyinftl

    I found this while searching for the quote from Call the Midwife, so thank you for posting it. Brave is something I have been called too — in 2011 I had a lung transplant, and it was fairly touch and go for a long time following the surgery. But I survived. I won’t say it was anything akin to confidence but probably moreso faith that gave me the courage to be brave.

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