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Wishcasting Wednesday

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Yesterday, my therapist pointed out that I’m trying to find a formula. I was confused and uncomfortable and irritated by that — because she’s right. All of my research and work and searching and contemplating and pushing, all my suffering is a quest to find the right way, the perfect strategy, the foolproof plan, the trick to having a happy, content, successful, safe life. Every book I buy, every new blog I subscribe to, every new class I take, every workshop or retreat I sign up for, all of it is my tiny little heart looking for the secret to peace, to love everlasting and pure. I know it intellectually, but I can’t seem to get myself to accept that this is not going to work. I make grand gestures of letting go, only to feel again the familiar tightness in my chest, to look down and see my hands clenched into fists.

It’s Wishcasting Wednesday, and Jamie Ridler asks “what do you wish to discover?” To discover means finding something or someone unexpectedly, becoming aware — to find, detect, uncover, reveal, unearth.

I wish to discover my truth. The essential and fundamental fact of myself, reality.

I wish to discover my confidence. To manifest what Susan Piver describes as “the willingness to be as ridiculous, luminous, intelligent, and kind as you really are, without embarrassment.”

I wish to discover my basic goodness. To be fully aware of and connected to my innate wisdom and compassion and power.

I wish to discover presence in each moment. To become aware of what is, exactly as it is, to accept it without judgement — to show up for my life, with an open heart, at ease in the vast space of now.

 

Wishcasting Wednesday

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This week, Jamie asks: What space do you wish to create? My initial response, first thought, immediate wish as I sit at my cluttered mess of a writing desk is to create space here, space for creating, contemplating, practicing. I wish to clean, clear, and organize, to get rid of what doesn’t belong here, what isn’t serving or inspiring me.

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I wish to create space for my body’s wisdom, to be able to connect with its ability to heal, to trust it to tell me what it wants, what it needs, to take the opportunity to support its health and wellness, to make room for breath and movement and rest.

I wish to create space to rest, relax, be at ease, to restore and heal.

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I wish to create space to learn, mainly through reading and contemplation, but through connection too. I have access to such a vast and rich amount of wisdom and sanity, in textual and physical forms — soft animal bodies and wild hearts, blood and alphabet — and am wishing for the space to connect with it, consider it.

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I wish for the space to be present with my little family, to give attention to the dogs, to connect with Eric in an easy, gentle, loving, content, mindful way.

I wish to create space for what truly matters, to clear away all the stuff and nonsense that no longer serves me (if it ever did), to make way for what is precious and important.

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I wish to create space for things to take root and grow, to cultivate what will nourish, give joy, ease suffering.

I wish to create space for stillness, calm, acceptance, self-compassion.

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I wish to create space to be, simply be, with what is exactly as I am.

Enough. These few words are enough.
If not these words, this breath.
If not this breath, this sitting here.

This opening to the life
we have refused
again and again
until now.

Until now.
~by David Whyte

P.S. Thanks to Mr. Salahub for the pictures of Red Mountain Open Space.