Gratitude

1. Morning walks. This time of year I start to revisit places we haven’t walked in a while, as we are avoiding the ticks and mosquitoes by the river. There’s a short trail through a small natural area close by, Puente Verde (which means “green bridge”). It’s 37 acres that used to be an agricultural site with a single tree and a green bridge. One of my favorite things about Fort Collins is they do make a real effort to maintain pockets of green space all through town and we also have a really great trail system. There’s also a baby cow at The Farm that we got to visit this week.

2. Practice. The past few weeks have been rough — people I love dealing with physical and mental illnesses, household and material upsets that have to be dealt with, medical procedures and conditions that aren’t any fun, temporarily being off HRT which means all my symptoms are back until further notice, and disappointing shifts in friendships. Practice means that even when things are difficult, I have a way to be with it without losing myself.

3. Spring. So green, so much in bloom. I’ve been slowly weeding patches that need it, spending just enough time to feel like I accomplished something but not so much that I’m sore and irritated by the process. We are going to put our garden in this weekend. I want tomatoes and cucumbers for sure, and would like some zucchini, basil, watermelon, pumpkins, and more strawberries too. I also would like some columbine, Colorado bee plants, marigolds, tulip and daffodil bulbs, peony poppies, and a yellow peony in memory of Rita. Eventually I’d also like a redbud and peach tree and more lilacs along the back fence. I would also like to request that the grasshopper population of the past few years simmer down.

4. Small group training with Shelby and the gang. I was able to start back this week, just being careful and not lifting too much weight. That along with the pool and going back to yoga on Sunday mornings with Jamie has been really lovely. I’m am so grateful for what my body can do, how forgiving it can be.

5. My tiny family, tiny home, tiny life. Eric finally wrapped up the semester and gets to take some time off now. With him home today and everything I’d normally do on a Monday cancelled because of the holiday, it’s practically a four day weekend.

Bonus joy: getting my new phone activated and playing with my new camera, how Ringo has been helping me keep the squirrels away from the bird feeder, Dr. Gaffney squeezing us in yesterday morning, tickets to a comedy show, planting seeds, hanging out and texting with Chloe’, Leslie coming to aqua aerobics, poetry, my office being cleaned up, the hydromassage chair, the sauna, making each other laugh, texting with Mom and Chris, naps, almost anything fresh baked, tacos, a crispy gala apple with some peanut butter, chips and dip, a warm shower, that corner of the couch, down blankets and pillows, blackout curtains, other people’s gardens and dogs, reading in bed at night while Eric and Ringo sleep.

Something Good

Image by Eric

1. This Too Shall Pass from Jena Schwartz. “Nothing lasts forever but the love that is our essence. In life, this love might take the form of fire or water, softness or power, creation or destruction, or more likely, all of the above according to the season and chapter. Remembering this helps me keep an even keel when the waters around me rise and fall, when circumstances challenge me, and especially when I feel unequipped to meet the moment.”

2. More is More from Seth Godin.

3. Stop Cop City resources from Community Movement Builders and Stop Cop City Solidarity

4. ‘Depression Rooms’ and ‘Doom Piles’: Why Clearing the Clutter Can Feel Impossible on The New York Times. “The link between messiness and mental health is real. These low-lift tips for keeping a clean-enough home will help.”

5. 5 Places To Sell Your Used Clothing And Accessories Online.

6. 3 Compelling Reasons to Schedule More Nothing from Courtney Carver on Be More With Less.

7. Sleep, creep, leap from Austin Kleon.

8. Pep Talk: On Writing Habits (& Letting Go of Guilt) from Maggie Smith.

9. Why We Don’t Use Social Media from Lindsey Smith and Alexandra Franzen, Co-founders of Get It Done.

10. Giving Aid Is Society’s Last Chance from Frederick Joseph. “Reflecting on philanthropy being more vital than ever.”

11. Activist Micro Action Dispatch from Omkari Williams. “This week’s 10 minute task: Let’s Get Moving on Climate Action.”

12. Pema Chödrön‘s Six Kinds of Loneliness on Lion’s Roar. “Usually we regard loneliness as an enemy. Heartache is not something we choose to invite in. It’s restless and pregnant and hot with the desire to escape and find something or someone to keep us company. When we can rest in the middle, we begin to have a nonthreatening relationship with loneliness, a relaxing and cooling loneliness that completely turns our usual fearful patterns upside down. There are six ways of describing this kind of cool loneliness. They are: less desire, contentment, avoiding unnecessary activity, complete discipline, not wandering in the world of desire, and not seeking security from one’s discursive thoughts.”

13. Poems from Rosemerry Wathola Trommer: Yin and After the Moon Knocked.

14. Ready for Swedish Death Cleaning? from Danny Gregory.

15. One Stubborn Layer at a Time a poem from Julia Fehrenbacher on Instagram.

16. No one heals alone: Finding a therapist.

17. How to Prioritize Your Own Needs as a Sensitive, People-Pleasing Introvert. In related news, Tired? How to Get Out of ‘Energy Debt’ as an Introvert.

18. Movies I want to see: Theater Kids (trailer), and Next Goal Wins (trailer), and Are You There God? It’s Me, Margaret review – Judy Blume adaptation is a winner.

19. Recipes I want to try: Potato Chip Crispy Treats, and Rhubarb Compote Squares, and Rhubarb Scones. In related news, How to Grow Rhubarb.

20. Alison Bechdel’s Legendary Comic Dykes to Watch Out For Comes to Audible With All-Star CastIn related news, Roxane Gay, Carrie Brownstein, Roberta Colindrez, Jane Lynch To Star in Audible Adaptation of Dykes To Watch Out For.

21. That’s the Funny Thing About Grief on The New York Times.

22. Han Caoa fiber artist on Instagram.

23. Andrea NelsonWatercolor artist and maker of things on Instagram. I love her tutorials.

24. Brendon Burton Captures Moments of Nostalgia and Wonder in North America’s Most Isolated Places.

25. Through Lush Aerial Photos, Pham Huy Trung Documents the Rich Textures and Colors of Vietnam’s Agriculture.

26. 33 Life-Saving Tips To Remember In Times Of Crisis, According To Folks Online.