Category Archives: Core Values

Something Good

1. Monday is almost over. This is the last week of classes at CSU, and as in love as I ever was with my class and as much I adored my students, I am ready to be done now.

2. The art of Hugh MacLeod. He posts his work on his website, gapingvoid, and it is this lovely mix of sharply funny (like the edge of a knife sometimes), smart, and open-hearted.  In honor of the first item on this “Something Good” list, here’s one of my current favorites:

art by Hugh MacLeod

3. Seven Day Weekends. Not having to go to work for almost the whole week of Thanksgiving was great.  We should do that more often.

4. This kid, and everything about him and this video. The moment he takes a deep breath, wipes his tears, and holds up “But…I’m not going anywhere,” was the best, so brave. After you watch the video, make sure to read his update, which says, in part: “The video is real, and true…Love and peace to all who are hurting.” Amen.

5. Pine Ridge Holiday Project. Sorry to sound like a broken record, but I am just so in love with this, and I really think you should try it. You don’t have to be in Colorado, people from all over the world have taken part in the past, all you need to do is email Christine or Julie and get some names. In the last few days, they got more lists, specifically infants, and have so many kids, infants, and elders left who really need your help this season. From my heart: if you have enough this season and you are loved, please share that with someone who might not be so lucky.

6. “Women, Food, and God” Eating Guidelines. These are so simple, so complicated, and have been so helpful to me. I highly recommend this book to any woman who struggles with her relationship with food. Here they are, the seven guidelines to eating more consciously, (and if you can already do this, good for you–please be kind to those of us who are struggling):

Eat when you are hungry.

Eat sitting down in a calm environment. This does not include the car.

Eat without distractions. Distractions include radio, television, newspapers, books, intense or anxiety-producing conversations or music.

Eat what your body wants.

Eat until you are satisfied.

Eat (with the intention of being) in full view of others.

Eat with enjoyment, gusto and pleasure.

7. Felted animals. I have been in love with these since I first saw them.

by artist Alisha Harms

There are artists that will use a picture of your dog and make you one that looks just like them. If the ones who are really good at it didn’t charge so much ($299!–the work is worth that amount, but I just can’t justify spending it), I’d have ones made of Obi, Dexter, and Sam and take them with me everywhere. I’d especially like one of Obi. He’s gone, but I could carry his miniature around in my pocket. And I know just who I’d hire to make them for me: Kay from Canada, of Kay’s K9s.  Her work is amazing! Here are a few of her custom pieces:

Dexter’s Mini D is pretty good, but not quite as close of a match.

8. Sharing a banana with Sam every morning. No matter where he is in the house, no matter how soundly asleep, he hears the snap of the top of a banana and before I can get the first side peeled, he’s sitting in front of me asking for some. One thing I love so much about it, besides the cuteness of a dog eating a banana, is that Obi loved bananas too.  Right after he died, the first banana I had all to myself was the saddest thing ever, so Sam has returned eating a banana to a joyful practice.

9. The Idea Manifesto. This is the work of Bernadette Jiwa, a “Results Coach” born in Dublin and living in Perth, Australia.

10. Twinkly lights.

  • Love and peace to all who are hurting.

Collage

So many things have bubbled up in the past few days, so many whispers and questions and fragments and fleeting thoughts, that the only title I could think of for this post was “collage,” a collection of things I am going to piece together, a composition of bits and pieces, hoping they amount to something whole.

art by Guillermo Perez Santos

I took some time to answer the questions from Patti Digh’s post on 37 Days, “What do you want to let go of? What do you want to create?” Here’s my lists:

What do I want/need to let go of as I end this year?

  • Distraction
  • Numbing out
  • Compulsive eating
  • Fear of failure
  • Fear of success
  • Waiting for permission
  • Staying stuck
  • Waiting to begin until the circumstances are perfect or the great idea hits
  • Being bullied and abused, by anyone, including me
  • Being in love with my problems, my brokenness
  • Being a victim
  • Negativity and criticism
  • Discursive mind
  • Confusion
  • Busyness
  • Self-hate
  • Judgement
  • People who don’t support, comfort, or “feed” me
  • Should
  • Have to
  • Pleasing, performing, and perfecting
  • Stress and exhaustion
  • Dis-ease
  • Pushing, forcing
  • Denying needs, delaying pleasure

What do I need to create in the new year?

  • Self-nurturing
  • Self-love
  • Self-care
  • Self-acceptance
  • Gratitude
  • Joy
  • Publications
  • A blog that’s a safe and supportive space, for me and my kind and gentle readers
  • An audience
  • Friendships that fuel my work, my path
  • Quiet and rest
  • Aspiration and intention
  • Trust and faith
  • Mindfulness
  • Awareness
  • Simplicity
  • Minimalism
  • Physical strength and ease
  • A healthy relationship with food
  • A balance of work and rest
  • Compassion
  • Wisdom
  • Bravery
  • Space and an open heart

Later, as I was reworking some of my “about” pages, for me and the blog, I was thinking about my evolving understanding of who I am, and what I have to offer.

from the Cool Hunter

I might not end up changing the whole world, but I do accept the reality that I can help change the world for some people, and at the very least, I can save myself. I am a compassionate visionary, an open-hearted warrior, a wholeheARTed and embodied practitioner of yoga, meditation, writing, and dog. 2011 was the year for me to become a better friend to myself. When I tried to think of what 2012 might be, I was careful to not start a long list of crazy plans and big ideas–you shouldn’t run a marathon the day you get your cast off your previously broken leg.  There are stages of healing, and I still need some pretty serious rehab and rest.

So what will 2012 be?

Retreat.

I got an email the other day announcing that Pema Chödrön is going on retreat next year.  In the Buddhist tradition, regular retreats are seen as an absolutely essential part of practice, of the path.  Retreat is a time to withdraw from one’s “regular” life, to go to a place of safety and privacy, of protection and quiet, and to spend the time in prayer, meditation, reflection, and study. So, as Ani Pema will do, I am also going on retreat next year.

Okay, so I won’t actually be going anywhereI can’t take a year off from my life and leave, but I can spend the next year sinking deeper into my practices (yoga, meditation, writing, and dog), open my heart wide, stay, sit, settle, be still.  Maybe in this way, my great work will reveal itself, arise naturally. I will continue to work on being a better friend to myself, balancing my life between work and rest, proceeding with my life-rehab, and fully embodying my life, but I will do all this in the spirit of retreat.

This is important, because when I was working with the second set of Comfort Queen questions today, from Jennifer Louden‘s book “The Comfort Queen’s Guide to Life,” I realized something.  The busyness and distraction that I struggle with, the wasting time on the internet, the obsessive checking, is because when I am tired, actually need rest, I can’t allow it unless I am sick or everything is done or it’s after 8 pm, because there is too much that needs doing.  So to make that inner task master monster think I’m doing something so it’ll leave me alone, I do busywork.  It’s like that bumper sticker, “Jesus is coming, look busy.”

Brokenness is learned, not innate.  The path for me is the way back to what is already and what has always been whole, to embody and love what is, and to be who I am.

sometimes it is necessary
to reteach a thing its loveliness
~Galway Kinnell