Three Truths and One Wish

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1. Truth: Yesterday morning, a cup of tea saved me. My favorite is Good Earth Sweet & Spicy. Yesterday was only my second day back at my CSU work after break, and I woke up feeling crappy. I taught my yoga class and felt a bit better, but by the time I got to campus, my throat was killing me. Luckily, I had some packets of my favorite tea in my office, so made myself a cup in a mug my brother gave me a few years ago for my birthday. Something about that tiny little ritual made me able to make it to lunch time, after which I went home and stayed on the couch for the rest of the day.

2. Truth: I know the life I want for myself, the ideal, but I can’t seem to take that final big step. It feels in a lot of ways like I’m standing at the edge of a cliff, and the only thing left is to step off, go over the edge, even though I have no idea exactly how or where I’ll land. There are so many reasons why I don’t want to move, why I’m hesitating — one big one being I have a very comfortable, relatively predictable life right now, and the change I want to make would put me in a place of unknowns and discomfort, a land without a map.

3. Truth: I’m okay with the inbetween. I don’t need to know exactly how this will work out. I don’t need to make any big decisions right now. I don’t need to play this big or lean in or live large or take any kind of risk or upscale anything. It’s okay if I just stand here in the quiet for a bit, contemplating my choices and enjoying the view. I will know when it is time to move, and it won’t be a decision my mind or even my heart makes. It will be a choice that comes from my gut, from a place of deep knowing that doesn’t have to explain itself.

One wish: If you find yourself similarly at a crossroads, may you know that it’s perfectly fine to pause and be still, to do nothing for as long as it takes to muster the courage to choose.

6 thoughts on “Three Truths and One Wish

  1. Tina Tierson

    Wow, Jill, thank you so much for this. I so needed it today. I’m in the middle of a huge life transition right now and also feel I’m standing on the edge of a cliff and can’t take that final step. I don’t know why I can’t, likely major fear, but you’ve made me stop feeling so guilty about it. I have to believe that when I’m ready it will happen. Do you see why I love you? xoxo

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  2. barbranostay

    I like the saying on your cup – it reminds me of another one I heard long ago – “Say what you mean, mean what you say”.

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  3. Mary Montanye

    Again, a wonderful post, Jill. Someone said to me yesterday that I was in liminal space. And that it is a wonderful place to be. To just allow myself to lean back, close my eyes and enjoy. Liminal space doesn’t last forever, but when we’re in it, it can be quite wonderful

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