Three Truths and One Wish

 

firstsnow20141. Some things are both miserable and wonderful. My walk with my dogs this morning is a good example: 14 degrees, windy and snowing, so quiet. My glasses kept fogging up, I was wet and cold, and because the thermal shirt I wore is silky, it was slippery and kept catching on my coat and riding up over my belly like some nightmare winter crop top. The last trace of autumn lingered under the first blanket of snow, the gold still visible through the white. Other than having to stop and shake off the snow from time to time and wanting to go faster, the dogs acted like it was any other day.

babyblanket2. Some things are old and worn but still precious. My baby blanket is a good example: the flannel is so soft, and it has a satin edge that I wore almost to disappearing rubbing it between my tiny fingers and against my cheek. My brother had one just like it, with a light blue background and white roses and the same white satin trim. His is in much better shape than mine. Our mom made them for us, at least that’s how I remember it, the story I’ve told myself about them — (is that right, Mom?).

meanddressy3. I feel like I am finally returning to myself. Jilly Bean, Jello, Silly Jilly. Striped knee length overalls, pigtails, and bare feet. That little one knew exactly who she was. So precious and goofy and creative and smart and kind. I’ve denied and abandoned her, made her wait, told her to be quiet, broken promises, been such a bully. And yet, she is still right there, ready when I am to begin again, to forgive, to love with her whole heart.

One Wish: That we awaken to the light of our true being. May we know we are loved and precious. May we be free.

6 thoughts on “Three Truths and One Wish

  1. tinakomi

    I love this so much! I need to remember the Tina I used to be. Actually, she was kind of cool, very brave, not afraid of anything, and probably kind of bossy (I guess I should skip that part!), but always took up for the underdog and tried to please people, but at that time not at the expense of herself. She also had a wild curiosity about everything! Thanks, Jelly Bean! 🙂

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  2. Alane

    i had that doll too (or one VERY similar) what a nice flashback memory. thanks for sharing your pictures. it was a balmy 65 degrees here in northern NJ; the cold is on it’s way starting thursday. can’t wait for the first snow flakes. glad you were out there to enjoy them! 🙂 xo

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