1. Truth: I posted this picture on Instagram last night, with the caption “Sometimes I feel so tired when it’s time for bed that I hang out in the bathroom on my phone for a bit just tryin to muster enough energy to brush my teeth. Don’t judge me. (P.S. I’ve made due, but I can’t wait for this pink bathroom to be redone).” All still true today.

2. Truth: It’s raining, and that’s bumming me out. I know it might seem especially crazy considering I spent the first 30-ish years of my life in the Pacific Northwest, and it hardly ever rains like this here, but rain makes me want to go back to bed and stay there.

3. Truth: I saw my therapist for the last time today, (unless I end up needing her again, which I’m not ruling out). She said all sorts of kind, encouraging, true things about me, and all I could manage to say in response was “thank you.” It was the most true thing, the most complete thing I could say.

One wish: That even if you are almost too tired to brush your teeth or it’s raining and you are sad or you are saying goodbye to someone or something important and you don’t know exactly how to do that or what to say, you feel gratitude deep in your bones for all of it — tender and terrible, beautiful and brutal — and you don’t ever, ever give up.

1. Truth: I’m feeling a bit like this pumpkin. Hollowed out, gutted, used up. I left for work yesterday morning and this pumpkin only had a few bite marks. When I pulled into the driveway that same evening, a squirrel was head and shoulders deep in it. Yes, I’m nourishing others, but I’m not doing so great right now at nourishing myself.

2. Truth: Since I’ve been back at my CSU job, I haven’t taken more than a few days off. I’m trying to do both this full time work and still manage my side gigs. It doesn’t really work, but I can’t seem to give anything up. I want to do ALL THE THINGS. I also have a real problem with FOMO.

3. Truth: I’m trying to be better about this. This morning, I taught my yoga class and instead of going straight to work after, I stayed for meditation. I’m going to take a day of rest tomorrow because my eyes hurt, I’ve had a headache for three days, and I need to get some rest before I really crash.

One wish: That we give ourselves permission to rest when we need it, that we nourish ourselves, that we honor our limits as well as our longing, that we balance our effort with ease.