1. Truth: Snow day! It started snowing yesterday morning and never stopped. This morning we woke up to 14.5 inches and it’s still going. All the schools are closed, even CSU — which NEVER happens. I even had to cancel my 7 am yoga class this morning. Eric walked the dogs (in snow so deep, it was more like swimming than walking) and he said there are cars stuck and/or wrecked all over. They plow the main roads here, but rarely ever the neighborhoods, especially not ours. I’m all caught up on laundry, so I’ll most likely be cooking today — sweet potatoes for quesadillas for dinner, butternut squash, and some muffins. Then I might write a few letters, read, take a nap. I am most certainly doing all that in my pjs. The glory of a snow day is you can do whatever you want, but there’s also not much you can do because you can’t really leave the house (my favorite!).

2. Truth: Having to cancel my yoga class this morning made me realize how much I love teaching. I thought I’d be as giddy to have a snow day for yoga as getting to skip my other work, but I was actually sad that I wasn’t going to get to teach. Luckily, I’m subbing my other yoga class Wednesday and Friday morning, and the roads should be clear by then, so I get another chance.

3. Truth: I am so so so lucky. I am happy, and when I’m not, I’m still okay. I am safe. I am healthy, and when I’m not I have health insurance and good doctors. I am financially stable. I get paid snow days and sick days, and summers off. I just bought a new car. I have a good husband. My dogs are healthy and happy, they love me and are stupid cute. I have people who love me, people who like me, and those who don’t aren’t spending any energy trying to hurt me. I have access to clean water and live in a house with heat and a beautiful bathroom. I have a refrigerator full of food, and when I’m hungry, actually have the luxury of thinking to myself, “what do I want to eat?” I could keep going, make a list of 2000 things, but you get the idea.

One wish (or more): May all beings be happy. May all beings be healthy. May all beings be safe. May all beings live with ease. And when this isn’t possible, may all beings find a way to keep going, not give up. May suffering be eased.

Obi and Dexter

1.Truth: Some loss never leaves you. I will never stop missing Kelly. I will never not feel sad that Obi and Dexter are gone. The memory of losing them lives in my body, and at the most unexpected times it gets triggered, washes over me as if I’m in the very first moments of it all over again.

2. Truth: Even though it hurts, it’s better than the alternative. Maggie Doyne, who just lost her 18 month old son, posted on Facebook yesterday, “The only thing worse than losing Ravi would have been to never have known him at all.” I can’t stop thinking about it.

3. Truth: The pain you feel when you lose someone is equal in measure to how much you loved them. This is the good news, and the bad news.

One wish: That while we are here, we love, and when we go, we know that we were loved.