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Sweet: #aprillove2015 and Wish: #aprilmoon15

littlemadmanApril Love prompt, “sweet.” This is a picture of my husband Eric at about six years old with his little sister Angela. They lived in Germany at the time, (their dad was in the Army and stationed there). Eric was on his way to a birthday party. He looks like a little Mad Man, except for the socks with sandals. It’s one of my favorite pictures.

April Moon prompt, “I close my eyes and take a deep breath. I wish…” I am acutely aware right now of the ways in which those who are sick, specifically those with various addictions, generate suffering both for themselves and those who love them. It’s so hard to watch someone you love be in pain, to be so sick and confused, and not be able to do anything about it, to have your support rejected, to know that the only way things will get better for them is if they choose to get help and you can’t convince or make them do that, to see them continue to resist, choose instead to keep going down a path of self-destruction.

I close my eyes and take a deep breath. I wish for suffering to ease. I wish that the confusion would lift and the truth be clear, that she’ll see how things really are and have the strength to make the right choice, that with the help of qualified professionals she’ll be able to save herself, turn things around. I wish that no matter what happens with her, those who love her will be able to find some peace, will know that they did everything they could for her. I wish for all those struggling with addiction the same clarity and strength, and for those who love them the same peace, the ability to be okay no matter what the outcome.

Catching Up: #aprillove2015 and #aprilmoon15

whenthingsfallapartThursday’s April Love prompt was “ten years ago,” which I skipped writing about here because I’d already written about something similar the other day when I answered the April Moon prompt, “Knowing what I know now, I would tell my ten-years-ago self…

Today’s April Love prompt was “Life-changing book.” Even though I love books and have many favorites, and there are quite a few that have been instrumental in helping me shift something that was stuck (for example, Brene’ Brown’s The Gifts of Imperfection: Let Go of Who You Think You’re Supposed to Be and Embrace Who You Are or Geneen Roth’s Women Food and God: An Unexpected Path to Almost Everything), there is one that was a complete life-changer, one that I come back to again and again, the book I would save if I could keep only one, read only one for the rest of my life — Pema Chödrön’s When Things Fall Apart: Heart Advice for Difficult Times.

Thursday’s April Moon prompt was “sometimes I wonder if I will ever…” slow down, calm down, be peaceful and content, stop worrying, feel entirely comfortable in my own skin, take really good care of myself, write the books, have the life I’ve imagined since I was six years old but was never quite able to manifest entirely. Sometimes I wonder, and yet I feel more sure now than ever that it’s absolutely possible, if I keep wanting it and I don’t give up. Like the lines from Arundhati Roy say, “Another world is not only possible, she is on her way. On a quiet day, I can hear her breathing.”

Today’s April Moon prompt is “this is what makes me feel lucky…” That I’m here, that I continue to try, that I haven’t given up, that I have big love in my life, that I’ve been able to do mostly what I wanted, that I have a good partner, that my dogs are healthy and here, that I don’t have to worry about money, that I have a sweet little house with a garden, that I’m healthy and strong, that I’m smart and curious, that I can be creative, that I can come here and write and then share whatever I want and people actually read it, that I have a good job, that I have time to practice and study, that I have good friends who make me laugh, that I am sane and safe.