Monthly Archives: April 2023

Gratitude

1. A successful surgery. Everything went even better than I expected. I had a private room with a view of the tops of the trees and the sky. My health insurance is covering everything. I had much less pain and restriction than what I’d prepared for, was up and walking just hours after leaving the recovery room, was able to manage what pain I had without any opioids, and experienced no nausea. The day after my procedure, my surgeon was willing to discharge me if I wanted, but since I still needed to be taken off my IV drip of lidocaine and hadn’t pooped yet (sorry if that’s TMI, but I did have part of my colon removed), I wanted to reach those milestones without difficulty before I went home so stayed one more night.

Every day, I feel a bit better, have been walking a lot and resting a lot. Today’s milestones are putting clean sheets on the bed all by myself, doing laundry — folding and putting it away even, and my second day on no pain meds. Later I’m going to take a longer walk (there’s a 1.8 mile loop Ringo and I take around our neighborhood in the afternoon sometimes and I’m going to try that) and while in the shower I’ll remove the last of my steri-strips from the two bigger incisions. I have a follow up with my surgeon on Tuesday and hopefully I’ll get cleared to get back in the pool, starting a return to movement practice that I’m guessing will take another 6-8 weeks to complete.

My surgeon was brilliant and all the nursing and other staff were awesome. I am beyond grateful. You can really see in the progression of pictures of me how I kept feeling better and better, the first of the set being me just out of surgery and the last one being me showered and home.

2. Eric. Poor guy was so nervous the day of my surgery. He’s been extra busy at work and had to take over all the dog walks and has taken such good care of me: before, during, and after. He brought me a “kitchen counter” love note every day I was in the hospital and just about every day since. He’s one of the best things I ever did for myself.

3. Good friends. Mikalina sent me gorgeous flowers. Shellie sent me a heart with “embodied” written on it. Chloe’ has been checking on me and sending me love and funny stuff and pictures of her tiny family, like always. Carrie and Chelsey and Janice have been regularly checking in. I got lots of well wishes and direct messages, far and wide. I even got to talk to my CSU friend Deanna, who I haven’t talked to in so long. Yesterday, our whole Wild Writing group was able to meet, to practice together, and it was so good to see them. I feel so lucky to know all these wonderful, tender hearted humans.

4. Ringo. He’s been such good company during my recovery. Our only issue was yesterday, which was cold so he wanted to cuddle on my stomach while I was lying on the couch, which I normally love but as I explained to him, I have stiches in my belly and he weighs almost 50 pounds. He finally gave up trying but he did not approve.

5. My tiny family, tiny home, tiny life. I am so glad to be home and recovering and I am excited for what comes next.

Bonus joy: lots of naps, my blackout curtains and sleep mask, birds at the feeder, good books and TV, listening to podcasts, potatoes, peach sorbet, plans for the future, everything turning green and a few things in bloom, other people’s dogs (cats, bunnies, birds, donkeys, etc.) and kids, a massage, comedy specials, on demand streaming content, good health, clean water, libraries, reading in bed while Ringo and Eric sleep.  

Something Good

1. Wisdom from Pema Chödrön: “The innocent mistake that keeps us caught in our own particular style of ignorance, unkindness, and shut-downness is that we are never encouraged to see clearly what is, with gentleness. Instead, there’s a kind of basic misunderstanding that we should try to be better than we already are, that we should try to improve ourselves, that we should try to get away from painful things, and that if we could just learn how to get away from the painful things, then we would be happy. That is the innocent, naïve misunderstanding that we all share, which keeps us unhappy.”

2. 5 Ways To End the Endless Game of Catching Up from Courtney Carver on Be More With Less.

3. Impossible Generosity: A Poem for my Daughter by Rosemerry Wahtola Trommer.

4. Realize Your True Nature on Lion’s Roar. “Yongey Mingyur Rinpoche presents practices for recognizing the true nature of mind — empty and open, luminous and aware.”

5. Good stuff from Seth Godin: Making Change Happen, The 500 Ways, and Foibles.

6. 10 Organizations You Can Support On Trans Day Of Visibility & Every Day.

7. 6 Ways to Help After the School Shooting in Nashville (Including, Not Giving Up)In related news, Republicans Want You to Forget Their Complicity in the Nashville Shooting, and I Hate Guns (an Instagram reel from Andrea Gibson), and Tennessee Republican responds to ‘hatred’ over remarks that nothing will ‘fix’ school shooting, and A therapist has advice for how to cope with repeated mass shootings: Lean into family, and This Is America: Where Everything’s Made Up and Lives Don’t Matter, and How Can We Be a Country That Does This to Our Children? on The New York Times. Guns are now the leading cause of death for children in the United States and the Nashville Covenant School shooting marked the country’s 130th mass shooting of 2023.

 8. A journal is a magic space to hang out from Austin Kleon.

9. COVID poetry: how a new genre is helping readers to comprehend the pandemic

10. The Dumpster Project.

11. Noa Goffer satisfies her materialistic urges by drawing her wish list instead.

12. What a Year Brings.

13. 30 Books Critics Think You Should Read Right Now.

14. All my art supplies cost me double from Danny Gregory. 

15. What makes me happy nowa series on The Guardian, “Writers consider what happiness means to them after the reckoning of the past few years.”

16. There Are 3 Different Types of Sensitivity. Which One (or Ones) Are You? All three over here.

17. My Marriage Was Never the Same After That. “In 2016, I wrote a poem that went viral. My home life got complicated,” an excerpt from Maggie Smith’s upcoming memoir, You Could Make This Place Beautiful.

18. On the confusion of diet culturean Instagram reel from Alex Light. This is why those of us with human bodies need to trust ourselves first rather than listening to the Tower of Babel that is the wellness industry.

19. Judy Blume Forevera new documentary on Amazon Prime, just in time for the release of Are You There God? It’s me, Margaret. In related news, Judy Blume: book banning now much worse in US than in 1980s.

20. Recipe I want to try: Bean and vegetable burritos. I’ve also accumulated a TON of Instagram reels with recipes, too many to try and share here, so much so that my feed of recommended videos is now mainly recipes and animals and cute kids and artists making their art, and I’m okay with that since those are the things I love the most.

21. Loveland’s High Plains Environmental Center Shows Native Landscapes Can Flourish Within An Urban EnvironmentIn related news, The lessons of Earth Day live on.

22. 8 Valid Reasons Why Highly Sensitive Introverts Might Step Back From a Friend.

23. Heron, Returninga poem by Christian Ward. I love herons, and poetry, so much.

24. Classical marble sculptures covered with traditional Far Eastern tattoos by Fabio Viale.

25. 11 Black Farmers And Black-Owned Farmlands To Inspire Your Green Thumb.

26. griefKit“This griefKit has articles, essays, books, communities, mindful movement, music, podcasts, recipes, tools, and considerations to help you make it through whatever kind of grief you’re navigating. We see you and invite you to give yourself more grace. We hope something or (a few somethings) in here helps you feel a little less raggedy, find words for your experience, remember to find joy and be gentle with yourself in its absence.”

27. Fascinating organic-shaped copper wire sculptures by Sally Blake.

28. Meet Stumpy, the cherry blossom tree stealing hearts by striving through the thick and thin.

29. Stop overwatering your houseplants, and other things plant experts want you to know.

30. ‘Dungeons & Dragons: Honor Among Thieves’ Plunders $15.3 Million Opening DayEric and I went to see this last week and it was really good: the acting and the story were great and it was really funny — no need to know anything about D&D to enjoy the movie. Then yesterday, I watched This Is Where I Leave You on Netflix, and it was really good too, for all the same reasons.

31. 9 easy ways to make your life a little better

32. Pink Peonies Burst with Life in Hyperrealistic Oil Paintings by Maria Marta Morelli*swoon*

P.S: Since I’m having major surgery on Wednesday, in all likelihood I’ll need next Monday off from posting this list, maybe the Monday after — who knows. Hopefully the 575 other lists I’ve made over the years have earned me some time off. 🙂