Prompt: While alchemy is the active process of creating something of value, serendipity is the passive path to finding an unexpected treasure. Looking back through 2015, what did you diligently try to create? What great thing did you just happen to find?
In 2015, I diligently tried to create: space for myself to become this new thing that’s emerging which I’ve already imagined, confidence to teach a regular yoga class, willingness to let my body be what it is, time to rest, healing in my body, momentum for “my business” (it still feels weird to call the work I do outside of CSU a “business”), connections with people doing the kind of work I am as well as those who want to be the recipients of the work I’m doing, and patience for what doesn’t go the way I want it to go.
In 2015, the great thing I just happened to find: ease with teaching, a natural rhythm and genuine approach, a depth of strength and perseverance that I didn’t realize was there.
Prompt: In her seminal book Bird by Bird, Anne Lamott offers the observation: “The evidence is in, and you are the verdict.” Regardless of where you live in this crazy beautiful world, I’m sure you’ll agree it’s been a BIG year. Today, I want to acknowledge that you are here and I am here and we are here. We’re just… HERE. That feels like a BIG DEAL. And, that being said, I invite you to reflect on all that this evinces. What are you the verdict of?
I am the verdict of a universe in love, with all of it, and all of me. There is a longing for me, for us, for all of it to stand in the wonder, in awe of all that is. We are the spontaneous arising of wisdom and compassion, of deep knowing, laughing at the same time there are tears streaming down our cheeks. I am ears made for sound (music and screaming), eyes made for sight (beauty and muck), a nose made for smell (fresh baked bread and shit), skin made for touch (a caress or a pinch), and a heart made for love as well as being broken. I feel in particular to be a manifestation of the desire to ease suffering, for the cycle of violence to stop, for love to win. I am the embodiment of an intention to make things right.