Three Truths and One Wish

endofsummerharvest1. Truth: I am mourning the end of the summer harvest, hard. When I went to the grocery store the other day, the watermelons were from Texas not Colorado, and the corn looked terrible, wilted with fat kernels that meant it would taste more starchy than sweet. Even though I bought the oregano and purple onion I’d need to make more roasted tomato soup, I’m not sure there are enough tomatoes left. Eric hasn’t brought me any strawberries from our plants out front for days. There’s only a few grasshoppers and the bees are almost all gone. The weather is cooler and the leaves are starting to finally turn and drop (much later than usual), and while I was ready for it to not be in the 80s every dang day, I’m sad.

2. Truth: There are times at my CSU job when I feel like I’m just wasting time. Yesterday it was when I was coding a departmental faculty and staff picture board, converting an older version to a page on our WordPress platform. It felt so tedious, so unimportant, so dumb, and it hit me that this is how I’m spending a large amount of my time. I tried to cheer myself up by telling myself this time would be converted to funds that I could use for better things, but it didn’t really work.

3. Truth: I don’t need to be great or popular or adored. I was telling a few friends, fellow yoga teachers this after my class yesterday morning. I told them I was happy that I’d had three return students, which is a big deal for a 7 am class, and how I don’t let myself believe it means I’m so good that they came back but rather it means I don’t suck, and that’s all I want. That makes me happy. That’s good enough for me. I know that if I keep at it, I might someday be adored by a few students, a couple of humans, and in the meantime I’m so grateful to the ones that keep showing up, keep allowing me to practice with them.

One wish: That we can feel at ease, content, satisfied with all the ways that things are changing, as well as all the ways that they are staying the same.

5 thoughts on “Three Truths and One Wish

  1. Marylinn Kelly

    I like the title, Three Truths and One Wish. I sometimes think of a (for want of a gentler word) manifesto in which truths I’ve discovered might be shared. Instead, they seem to wobble out, one at a time. I assume that is perfect order. xo

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    1. jillsalahub Post author

      “Wobble out, one at a time.” I love that. Sometimes these lists start to form before I log in to write them, but more often the way it works is I open a new post, pick an image, and start writing, asking myself, “what is true for me right now?” It’s a funny kind of magic. xo

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    2. jillsalahub Post author

      Oh, and your comment about the title reminded me how I started this — I was at a work retreat and the icebreaker activity was “two truths and a lie.” People would tell you three things and you were supposed to guess which one was a lie. I liked it, but something about the lie felt a little bad, so I switched it to a wish, and added one more truth.

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  2. Dianne

    Just wanted to say ‘thank you’ for the roasted tomato soup heads up. I made my 20 quart stock pot about 3/4 full and after eating some, we have 10 containers in the freezer. We had a bumper crop of tomatoes, including romas and those are the ones I used. It was delicious. Goes perfectly with grilled cheese or a simple panini.

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    1. jillsalahub Post author

      You are so welcome, Dianne! I love that recipe, and I know I am going to be so happy mid-winter to be able to taste a fresh tomato. Of course, it would be even better with some of your fresh bread. 😉

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