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Gratitude

1. Morning walks. I haven’t been taking as many pictures, partly because we’ve stayed away from most of the rivers and ponds (mosquito and tick season over here), and have spent more of our time walking around our neighborhood and the city parks. And yet, this is the list I made yesterday in my writing group after our morning walk, inspired by a line from a John O’Donohue poem, “For a New Beginning”Then the delight.

“Then the delight — the light, the way it reflected off the clouds filled not quite full enough to rain, the rabbit that lives around the corner, that chair left out on the curb for whoever may claim it that I bless every morning we walk past it saying to the people inside that house “no one wants that chair,” the flowerbeds of the house where the person who used to work at Creekside Nursery lives, the house next door to that where at least two small kids live and the tiny pink table and chairs stacked on the lawn with not one but two play kitchens on the front porch, the two little libraries (one for adults and one for children) at the church on the corner, the deer in the front yard of the house next to the school, the four little dogs — two chihuahuas and two yorkie terrier mixes — that Eric has told me about but I’ve never seen who ran out to the fence to bark at Ringo, having to run to avoid the sprinklers watering the ball fields, the tiny dragonfly by the pond, the woman who walked by us with her cattle dog who said to the dog and not us “another blue heeler!” and I thought how strange it was that yes they were blue but they were actually both black rather than that gray we call blue, the way the wind brushed against that one tree while the sun kissed its back, all the tiny newly hatched grasshoppers, the ponds — yes previously gravel pits but now an unofficial bird sanctuary, the water rushing through the drainage ditch, the soft cluck of chickens in that one yard, the dog that came around the corner big as a deer, reaching the road when there was no traffic and not needing to wait or rush to cross over, the three dogs on their back deck so excited to see us, the trail they mowed through the field, the guy sitting in a lawn chair in his front yard listening to a podcast or audiobook, the way Linda’s yard is hers but also a little bit still Barb’s, the “ditch lilies” and newly bloomed delphiniums and the nest in our lilac bush, how it feels to walk in to the cool and quiet of our house, the sound of Ringo drinking water from his bowl, the text from Eric, the newly watered grass, the mug of hot green tea, and Ringo curled up next to me asleep.”

2. Practicing together. In particular, my writing sangha and Red Sage yoga class. I suppose I could also include my aqua aerobics class and small group training.

3. Feeding people. My niece texted me the other day to ask for my pasta slaw recipe and when Chloe’ visited, I was able to give her a pan of baked ziti so she didn’t have to figure out dinner that night. It’s my default response in a crisis or when I don’t otherwise know how to help, the one thing I know I can do and that people need.

4. Ice cream for dinner. Eric and I were both “in our feelings” yesterday, tired and sad and a bit anxious, so we skipped dinner and went to Dairy Queen instead.

5. My tiny family, small house, little life. I’m so happy that Ringo is doing so much better. And I’m so lucky to have a partner in this life like Eric.

Gratitude

1. Morning walks. I am finally back to a “normal” schedule, walking Ringo four mornings a week. Eric does the weekend mornings and either Tuesday or Thursday morning, depending on which day I’m teaching yoga. It’s nice because I can sleep in a bit on the weekends, which somehow are still the days I do chores and get ready for the week ahead, even though I’m technically retired and could do those things any day of the week, and I like to devote the full day I teach to just that, focused on teaching and practicing yoga.

There’s magic on these walks, every single one. One moment of magic this week was walking a trail we don’t walk as regularly and running into a dear friend I hadn’t seen in a really long time. It was extra special because they had one of their dogs with them and Ringo liked her. I can’t usually predict which dog he’ll like and which he’ll see as a threat, so it’s nice when he meets a calm female who is smaller than him (these are his favorite qualities in a dog) and gets some good interaction, and extra bonus if it’s a friend’s dog who he might see again.

2. Community. Our time at the coast was an introvert’s dream vacation, but I’ve also enjoyed being back in community: at the gym, running into Chloe’ on the way back from the grocery store, talking with neighbors, practicing with my Friday morning writing sangha, having dinner with friends, and teaching yoga at Red Sage.

3. Peonies. Today is most likely the final day for the ones I cut and brought inside. I’m so glad they waited for me to come back from Oregon.

4. Practice. I don’t even like to think about where or how I might be without it — without the structure, the return, the invitation to start over as many times as necessary, the slowing down, the pause.

5. My tiny family, small house, little life. There are a lot of things in my life and the world that are hard, but these things are so easy, so right, so simple. Ringo is feeling so much better after seeing Dr. Foster and following her plan to heal his belly. Eric and I got tickets to see TWO Aimee Mann shows in the fall and later today we’ll pick our five shows to see this next year at The Lincoln Center, (Marc Maron and The Moth are for sure, we just need to decide on three more).

Bonus joy: good books, good TV, listening to podcasts, getting all the laundry done before it gets too hot outside, a/c, leftovers, trees, sprinklers, raspberries, plantain chips (my current obsession, with this dip), baked ziti (I can’t stop making it!), portable fans, how many more stars Ringo has in his fur now that he’s shed most of his undercoat, strawberry jam homemade by my aunt and uncle, daisies, hummingbird moths, texts from my brother that are just him saying “hi,” H. waking up at 4 am singing the ABC song, seeing him on Zoom, when Theresa saw Ringo and I walking and even though we were already a block away she came out and yelled “Good Morning!” and we waved madly at each other, seeing Sally in the pool, training with Shelby and the gang, being stronger than I expected, the hydromassage chair, the sauna, Rainier cherries, big salads, naps, new clean sheets, reading in bed at night while Eric and Ringo sleep.