Category Archives: Gratitude

Gratitude

1. Morning walks. This week they were mostly dark and cold with one especially foggy morning, but the trees were amazing, as are the neighborhood Halloween decorations. One of my favorite things about late fall and into winter is how quiet it gets. There are fewer humans out, because it’s too cold and dark so they either don’t come out at all or come later, after we are done walking. And yet, at first it’s strange to have it be so quiet, in particular fewer birds singing, and then it’s always a surprise when everyone starts to come back and the birds get so noisy again in the spring, after a long quiet winter of having what feels like the whole world to ourselves.

2. Practice. We didn’t have enough people for Red Sage yoga this week, and I have to confess that instead of doing yoga on my own anyway, I stayed in my PJs on the couch with my phone. Friday morning writing sangha was gorgeous and magical, again. And, I’m still meditating extra, sitting as well as doing a full body scan (which is a whole lot like yoga nidra) for the MBSR course I’m working through.

3. Making the right choice for me. As a people pleaser perfectionist in recovery, this keeps getting easier and easier. This week it was canceling my remaining physical therapy appointments because the value just wasn’t there.

4. Our pool and gym community. I finally seem to be able to work that back into my routine and I’m so glad. I start with the hydromassage chair, then attend an aqua aerobics class, stay after and “walk” or otherwise hop around for a mile, and then end with the sauna. It feels good.

5. My tiny family, small house, little life. I was ready to head out the door when Red Sage texted to say they didn’t have enough people for yoga, and because Ringo expected me to be leaving he was already in his crate and got SO confused when I changed back into PJs and got on the couch. He quickly accepted the shift in plans, however, and got up on his chair to nap. Ah, canceled plans — IYKYK. 

Bonus joy: all those who rallied today, other people’s pets and kids, the gardens that are still blooming even now, the way people wave at each other in smaller neighborhoods, sitting outside in the sun when the temperatures are cooler and you can wear a hoodie, down blankets and pillows, listening to podcasts, leftovers, getting the laundry done, a warm shower, clean sheets, my Shakti mat, good TV (and sometimes even “bad” TV), libraries and librarians, poets and poetry, comedy, true crime, documentaries, the way fresh rosemary smells, the sound of the leaves rustling, our backyard covered in bits of gold, yogurt and granola and berries, making someone else laugh, someone else making me laugh, naps, gummies, a warm mug of green tea, reading and writing in the morning, beans, peanut butter, online shopping (yes, I know that there are “downsides” but not having to leave the house to go to an actual store where there are other people and weird lights and too much noise is ideal for me), prescription glasses, dental floss, wireless internet, dog rescue, reading in bed at night while Eric and Ringo sleep.  

Gratitude

1. Morning walks. This is the time of year when because of the cooler temperatures and more moisture, the sky turns magical, which is why most of my pictures this week were of the sunrise. It was really cute this week when we walked at Kestrel Natural Area because the last two times we’ve walked there, at the very same bend in the trail, we’ve run into my friend Mary Ellen on her morning walk. Well, apparently she’s now also Ringo’s friend because as soon as we got close to that particular corner, he started to speed up, and when he saw her round the bend, his whole body started to wiggle and he was whining, and as soon as we caught up to her, he started barking and tugging on his leash. He does the same thing when we get close to Theresa’s studio, another friend he gets to visit on one of his morning walks with me.

2. Practice. I was back at Red Sage this week and we had a dog friend practicing with us who reminded me a lot of my first dog Obi. We considered skipping our Friday morning writing practice this week. There were only three of us and two of us are big fans of canceled plans and never feel like we have enough energy or time for the day ahead, but we rallied and I’m so glad we did. The poems we wrote to were amazing, the fellowship was as magic as always, and turns out I really needed it. I’ve been meditating extra, doing my regular sitting practice and also a body scan meditation every day, as I’m doing a solo version of the eight week MBSR (Mindfulness Based Stress Reduction) program created by Jon Kabat-Zinn using his meditation app and his book, Full Catastrophe Living: Using the Wisdom of Your Body and Mind to Face Stress, Pain, and Illness — because, y’all, being human is hard.

3. Fall. It is officially full on here. I’ve been wearing hoodies and wool socks, using my favorite down blankets to cuddle on the couch, getting in to bed and at first actually being cold (I sleep so much better when it’s cooler), being constantly stunned by the golden trees and sky, saying to Ringo “hurry, get back in here, it’s cold out there!”, and in general enjoying slowing down. If I were an animal, I’d probably be one of the ones that gets real fat and then hibernates all winter.

These are some of my favorite pictures of fall, when the world slows down and turns golden for a brief moment.

4. Mom. Still there, still getting good care and company, still smiling, still remembering us. My brother said recently, as we were talking about how she was sleeping more and quieter in general, “but I can still make her laugh.” 

5. My tiny family, small house, little life. It was Eric and I’s 32nd wedding anniversary this week. The smartest, best thing I ever did was marry him, and I’m so grateful, so lucky. Ringo’s belly continues to get better and I’m so grateful for that.

Bonus joy: library books I can check out online and load on my Kindle without ever having to leave the house, getting in the pool, the hydromassage chair, sitting in the sauna, Liminal’s spicy sesame bowl, therapy for both my mind and my body, a massage with Dana, groceries, good TV, listening to podcasts, hot coffee and green tea while I read and write in the morning, cheese, oats, the way the top of Ringo’s head smells, a dog sigh, puppies, other people’s kids and dogs, the last of the blooming things (Seriously, my Rozanne/Cranesbill geraniums never stop! And, the bees love them), strawberries, a warm shower, Grapefruit Bubly, Reese’s seasonal shapes (which I like WAY better than their regular cups because the shapes have more peanut butter and less chocolate), toast, libraries and librarians, poets and poetry, comedy, documentaries, gummies, down pillows and blankets, open windows, my Shakti mat, naps, reading in bed at night while Eric and Ringo sleep.