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Writer & Contemplative Practice Guide holding space for people cultivating a foundation of a stable mind, embodied compassion and wisdom. CYT 500

Something Good

1. So much poetry. Picture Day, First Grade and Again With the Ancestors and Nocturnal and Not Quite Lost on the Big Trees Trail and Sundays and Her Grand Nap Affair and Ode to a Good Friend and Fireproof Box by Julie Barton, Practice in Being Present and How and In the Fields of Grief by Rosemerry Wahtola Trommer, and May the Brutal Never Erase the Beauty from Julia Fehrenbacher, and Any Common Desolation and How to Apologize from Ellen Bass, and The Owl Who Comes by Mary Oliver, and A House Called Tomorrow by Alberto Ríos shared by Patti Digh. And in related news, Thirteen ways of looking at form from Pádraig Ó Tuama.

2. Overwhelmed by Life? 15 Reminders to Help You Feel Better from Courtney Carver on Be More With Less.

3. Good stuff from The Beautiful Mess by John Pavlovitz: Hey MAGAs, Aren’t Christians Supposed to Give A Damn About Other People? and No, It’s Not Going to Be Okay and Before You Die, Remember to Live and Dear God, WTH? and We on the Left Didn’t Want to Be Right and It Doesn’t Matter How Bad Things Are Here and The Cure for America’s Cruelty Sickness.

4. Keep Stress From Overpopulating on Trackless Wild with Janisse Ray. “Let me warn you here that this is going to be a difficult post. Consider this sentence a trigger warning. I’m going to look closely at stress and the zeitgeist of 2025, and for a minute it won’t be easy. Then I’ll talk about ways to defuse, deactivate, and neutralize stress. These are strategies you already know. Don’t take them as suggestions. Take them as mandates.”

5. Staying informed and hopeful, a list of resources compiled by Patti Digh. “It’s clear that major news outlets are not providing the real news of what is going on in Washington, DC, primarily because they are owned by oligarchs like Jeff Bezos who are restricting the news. But we deserve to know what is happening.”

6. 6 Simple Habits That Will Keep Your Long-Distance Friendship Strong.

7. Addicted To Being Busy? How To Overcome Chronic Overwhelm.

8. The Value of Doing Nothing in a Hyperproductive World.

9. The Art of Doing Nothing: How to Create Your Own Personal Retreat Day.

10. 3 Hygge Hacks I Learned from Visiting Sweden in the Winter.

11. ‘Reading is part of my identity’: the woman taking on Goodreads owner Amazon. “Software engineer and developer Nadia Odunayo created the social media readers’ platform StoryGraph and its popularity has rocketed.”

12. The News and Your Attention: Engaging Without Being Consumed.

13. Recipes I want to try: Fish Taco Bowl, and Potsticker Salad, and Artisan Apple Bread, and Nigel Slater’s recipes for onion tart, and sweet potato, with miso and maple syrup dressing.

14. Worst possible from Seth Godin. An important, timely reminder.

15. 192 Nonfiction Books to Read This Women’s History Month.

16. Let Your Cardboard Show by Laurie Wagner.

17. Self-Taught Artist Masterfully Spray Paints Large-Scale Hyperrealistic Portraits.

18. A List of Things I Love from Andrea Gibson, “The poetry of everyday.”

19. Making Peace With Grief on A Grace Full Life.

20. Good grief, “A pep talk of sorts for those of us who are fresh out of pep” from Rita on Rootsie.

21. There are two political movements in America right now. “An invitation to join the one that’s smaller (but that won’t be for long).”

22. The End Files“a weekly newsletter featuring stories about death. Inside each issue, you’ll find news stories, a weekly roundup of notable obituaries, a listing of famous deaths in history, interesting quotes and lots of cemetery- and death-related art.”

23. In Praise of the Fake Bathroom Break from Elizabeth Kleinfeld: Here for All of It. “The fake bathroom break is how we’ve cripped inhospitable situations for generations. It’s how the neurodivergent, the anxious, the traumatized, the exhausted, the grieving, and the overstimulated have survived spaces and situations that weren’t designed for our nervous systems or emotional needs. It’s the socially sanctioned disappearing act that no one can really question. ‘I need to use the restroom’ is the magic phrase that grants temporary reprieve from unbearable sensations, conversations, or environments. It’s the universal pass to solitude when the world becomes too much.”

24. “do I have to show other people my work before publishing it?”: For the love of God: No.

25. Art, Ambition, Creativity: How To Steal Like An Artist’s Austin Kleon on Daily Stoic. (YouTube video/Podcast)

26. Bodies hold our stories…the shame, the desire, the healing.

27. Keita Morimoto Lingers in the Artificial Light of Urban Nights.

28. Being There: The Hospice Story on The Dying Matters Podcast. “Since the founding of the first modern hospice in 1967, their work has grown to encompass rehabilitative therapies, emotional counselling, and even bereavement support for families, alongside excellent clinical care. The mission of a hospice is to improve quality of life and wellbeing, so that every patient can enjoy whatever time they have left to the full. This modern incarnation of hospice and palliative care was the vision of one woman: Cicely Saunders. In the 1940s, Cicely was a nurse who believed that medicine was failing to provide adequate and compassionate care to people who were dying, and it was this belief that led her to pioneer new methods of palliative care that totally redefined how we care for the dying.” 

29. Making art in times of turmoil from Patti Digh.

30. Hope in Dark Times by Satya Robyn on Going Gently.

31. Why Animals Love Introverts (and the Feeling Is Mutual).

32. Are you homesick too? “Perhaps for a place, a time, or a person? It all counts” from Sas Petherick.

33. Against Self-Improvement: Adam Phillips on the Danger of Treating Ourselves as Pathological Patients in Need of a Cure.

34. After Loss, Comes Life.

35. Trump’s backpedaling shows he’s not invincible. “To compel Trump to reverse course, our job is to highlight political missteps, heighten public outrage and raise the political cost of implementing his radical agenda.”

36. The Page is Always Waiting, “And your words are always there for you” from Jami Attenberg on Craft Talk.

37. On Writing More of the Story from Jena Schwartz. “A little story about PR and keeping it real.”

38. Your Art is a Tool and Beauty is an Emergency. “Maggie Smith on creating during upheaval, how not to kill pleasure, and the emergency of a sunrise.”

39. Musk’s Economic Jihad, “Trump will soon learn that his support isn’t infinite. His base might be rabid, but even the most die-hard MAGA voter has a breaking point.”

40. How To Stop Food Noise Naturally: 5 Habits To Start Now, According To Doctors.

41. How Not to Have a Breakdown While America Does. “Why Your Self-Care is a Revolutionary Act.”

42. ‘The nice version of her was manufactured for YouTube’: my mum, the family vlogger who became a child abuser. “Ruby Franke was a social media star who made viral videos about her six children and perfect-seeming life – until she was jailed for child abuse. Now her eldest daughter Shari is telling her side of the story.”

43. Careless People: A Story of Where I Used to Work by Sarah Wynn-Williams review – a former disciple unfriends Facebook. “This account of working life at Mark Zuckerberg’s tech giant organisation describes a ‘diabolical cult’ able to swing elections and profit at the expense of the world’s vulnerable.”

44. ‘It’s part of who I am’: Heston Blumenthal on the bipolar diagnosis that saved his life, his journey of self-discovery – and how he finally emerged from his family’s shadow. “In a searingly honest interview, the star chef talks about the pressure of success, dealing with grief and how being sectioned changed everything.”

45. Stargazing, poetry and meditation: What connects NPR readers to their spirituality on NPR. “In February, we asked our audience: What does your spiritual practice look like?…More than 80 readers from different belief systems sent in their poignant responses.”

46. Vasilisa Romanenko’s Lush Portraits Wrap Common Birds in Decadent Patterns.

47. Charlotte Perkins Gilman on Why She Wrote “The Yellow Wallpaper.”

48. Yotam Ottolenghi: I tried intermittent fasting, and hated it. This is why we need to ditch the diets and go back to basics. “The chef says we need to forget fads and focus on the joy of good food cooked with love.”

49. In a world that glorifies hustle, deep rest is a revolution from Rev. angel Kyodo williams. (Facebook reel)

50. Charles Yang performing “Change is Gonna Come” by Sam Cooke. (Facebook reel)

51. And finally, a bunch of random things I saved to my phone recently.

Gratitude

1. Morning walks. Oh, how I’ve missed them the past two weeks. It’s such an essential part of taking care of myself: the companionship and joy of a dog, being outside, the potential for a surprise around every corner, moving my body in the quiet, seeing the sun rise, feeling like we have the whole world to ourselves.

2. Tokarski Home and hospice care. The day I arrived in Oregon was the same day Mom was moved to a hospice care home. Hospice had come to assess her at the same time we were looking for a smaller facility for her to get more specialized care than we could give her at home. Hospice suspected she might only have a week or two left, and as they had a room available (we found out later this is very unusual, that they typically have a waiting list), they recommended moving her there. It was a surprise to hear that the decline we’d watched happen slowly over the past few years was progressing so rapidly, but it also confirmed that we did, in fact, need more support than we could provide her at home. 

I drove straight from the airport to Tokarski Home to see her and my brother her first day there. Mom had a big smile when she saw me. Over the next few weeks, she slept less and ate more and was more responsive than she’d been in a while. I suspect her improvement was that a UTI she’d been struggling with finally got better, she’s engaging with more people regularly (SO many visitors), has four skilled caretakers 24/7 who she adores, and she liked having me there. I talked with the head nurse, and he said her doing better than she was at home is something common enough they call it “The Tokarski Effect.” She may have more time than their original assessment of a few weeks, but she is still most likely near the end and in exactly the right spot, even if it’s for a few months instead of their initial guess.

Tokarski House is a special place, just what we all needed. It’s centrally located and allows for lots of visitors, there’s good food, we can watch the Hallmark Channel as much as we want and listen to music, and it’s close by my brother so he easily can visit but no longer has to be in charge of any caretaking, which is a huge relief. Each of the five rooms has a sliding glass door and patio where we can watch the squirrels and birds and the weather. I spent my nights at Mom’s house, which was weird, knowing she won’t ever go back there — equal parts sad, lonely, and also such a nice break after peopling all day.

One of the last days I was there, I walked in to her room and Mom said, “There’s my girl!” It was hard to leave with her still here, but I missed my tiny family, small house, little life, and it’s hard to know exactly when the real end will come. I told one of her nurses that when you make your life elsewhere, this sort of thing is one of the consequences — as Mom would so often say, “it is what it is.” I am at peace knowing Mom’s surrounded by her family and friends and getting the best care possible. 

3. Little, easy comforts. Watching The Office, other people’s dogs, eating ice cream for dinner, hashbrowns with ketchup, sitting around talking and making each other laugh, holding hands, naps, texting with Eric, sending each other pictures, listening to podcasts in the rental car.

4. My brother. This past year and a half, starting with caring for Dad in his final months at home with the help of hospice, and then Mom’s stroke, her resulting decline and dementia diagnosis and ongoing need for care was A LOT, and Chris took on the bulk of it. There’s really no way to ever sufficiently thank someone for that, but hopefully he knows how grateful we all are and how much he’s loved and that it’s okay to rest now.

5. My tiny family, small house, little life. I’ve been away a lot in the past year and a half, but this trip was the longest Eric and I have ever been apart in 31 years, and I was so ready to come home, am so glad to be here.

Bonus joy: lounging in the backyard with Ringo and Eric, things starting to bloom, safe and easy travels, all the love and care people have been sending, Ringo asleep on the dog bed under my writing desk, how happy he was to see me when I got back, hugs in the kitchen, home cooked food, my own bed, a warm shower, a big glass of clean cold water, getting to see so many family and friends I don’t get to see that often, old pictures, flannel sheets, down blankets and pillows, KIND nut clusters, Mom’s smile, all the goodies people brought Mom that I got to share, Hawaiian pizza, sunshine, rest, practice, Burgerville, reading in bed at night while Eric and Ringo sleep.