Three Truths and One Wish

swoonlilacbloom1. Truth: This is one of my favorite times of the year, as well as one of the hardest. It’s the busiest part of my whole CSU work year, but it’s also spring — the smell of the lilacs, my irises starting to bloom, buds on my peonies, the trees getting their leaves, the bird song, the promise of a garden and summer, the rain, the rain, the rain.



2. Truth: I have Seasonal Affective Disorder. I’m very aware that S.A.D. is the kind of condition that if you don’t have it sounds like a made up thing, but trust me — it’s real. It’s some kind of trick the light and moisture and temperature plays on my brain. And when it’s as gloomy as it has been the past few days (and will be for the next few as well), I just want to stay in bed. I feel like I’m carrying the full weight of the sky and the weather in my body, like the whole thing sits right on top of my head, settles in my chest, and it’s too heavy. Growing up in the Pacific Northwest, I just thought I was a gloomy person. Then I moved to Colorado and realized it was actually the weather.

overit3. Truth: I’m ready for this semester to be over. I was playing around with my new work camera yesterday, and my friend who’d stopped by to have lunch took this picture of me. It makes me smile because it’s so ridiculous but also so accurate — this is exactly how I feel right now. I have two more weeks of CSU work (fingers crossed that I finish what I have to by then, but even if I don’t my office has to be packed up so they can move it back into our newly remodeled building, thus the chaos behind me in the picture) and three more Sundays of yoga teacher training, and I’m so ready to be done, to rest.

One wish: That even if we are busy, overwhelmed, sad, tired, confused, we are still able to see and appreciate the beauty amidst the mess, still able to laugh. That we do what we can to be gentle with ourselves and others. That even as we surrender to what is, we don’t give up.


4 thoughts on “Three Truths and One Wish

  1. barbranostay

    Will you and your husband be spending your vacation at that lovely beach resort again this year? I remember some of the pictures of it that you shared with your readers last summer – it looked so relaxing , so beautiful… (Now, turn that frown upside down 🙂

    1. jillsalahub Post author

      We won’t be going this year, can’t afford the time or money to do it more than every other year. I am going to Oregon to visit family and hope to go to the beach while I’m there, even if just for the day. I do love it there, so much.

  2. artiviews

    I totally get the SAD thing. I live in Tacoma Wa and feel so much better when we have sun. I’ve strung white twinkle lights around the ceiling of my bedroom and turn them on even on gloomy days and I have a ficus tree with colored twinkle lights that I light up on gloomy days in my living room as well. Small things but they really help my mood.Fortunately haven’t needed them for a bit–unseasonably sunny here. Yay.

    1. jillsalahub Post author

      Yes, I use a HappyLight every morning, sit in front of it while I meditate and write. It really helps — even here, where we get so many sunny days.


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