Monthly Archives: August 2012

Gratitude Friday

This post is a mashup of The Little Bliss List and Joy Jam, and as such is meant to celebrate: the little things that brought me hope and happiness this week, the sweet stuff of life, those small gifts that brought me joy this week. By sharing them, I not only make public my gratitude, but maybe also help you notice your own good stuff and send some positive energy out into the world.

1. Some relief from fear. I kept getting stuck there in these past few weeks, but in the last few days, my mind has relaxed a bit, some of the tension has left my body, and I’m grateful.

2. Yoga. This practice gets me moving when I’m stuck, is medicine. My teachers and classmates are unafraid of my grief and my fear. It’s a safe container for whatever arises, offers a way to work with it.

3. Meditation instructors, Wanda (my local MI) and Susan Piver (my mostly virtual MI). They are both so kind and so wise, such a gift when things get hard, when what I’m experiencing feels so much bigger than the state and skill of my practice.

4. My family. Eric, my dogs, both sets of Moms and Dads, my brother and my nieces all offer love, a sense of belonging, and joy that is such a comfort to me.

5. My class. It has been such a wonderful distraction. My students are funny and smart, engaged and present.

Bonus Joy: Dexter’s health and happiness. He might be dying, but for now his suffering is minimal. I’m so grateful for that. And bonus to the bonus joy, last night he got in bed with me and cuddled, slept next to me almost all night. He hasn’t done that in a long time, not since we got Sam and he decided to “get his own apartment,” (sleep on the couch), and I miss it.

August Break: Day 30

It doesn’t matter that I told them he wouldn’t be home for two more hours, they spent that whole time waiting by the front door, getting up to look out the window, check every noise they heard, looking for him. They do this when I am gone after they’ve had their dinner too. They just know that after they’ve eaten, the next thing is to make sure everyone in the pack makes it home. There have been times when one of us is gone overnight that they both sleep in the living room. I might not have kids, but I have a family.

Wishcasting Wednesday

What healing do you wish for?

I wish for a healing of my heart. I know that the truth is it will always be broken, even as it’s whole, because I continue to love and keep it open, but I wish for the hurt of love, of life, to be medicine rather than poison, and for the strength of my heart to always rest in wisdom and love.

I wish for a healing of my mind, for the discursive and obsessive fearful thought patterns to release it into open space where it can relax in its natural wisdom.

I wish for a healing of my body, the stress and suffering it experiences because of the sadness and fear generated by my mind. May it rest, may it be well-fed, may it be held and comforted, may it relax and feel calm.

I wish for a healing of Dexter’s body. I don’t mean I wish he wouldn’t have cancer, wouldn’t die, but I wish for it to be easy, gentle, for there to be as little suffering as possible, and for the time he has left to be a healthy and happy experience.

I wish for a healing of suffering in the world, both that which is out of our control (we can’t stop a hurricane if it wants to come) and that which is self-induced, that which we are generating. May all people wake up to their own basic goodness and realize that they have the power–to stop adding to the suffering, to help, to love, to be brave, to connect, to experience joy and gratitude. May we all focus our energy on what we can do to make things better–for ourselves, for others, for all beings and our environment.

Three Truths and One Wish

1. Truth: Confidence is the antidote to fear. It is medicine for the poison of anxiety and worry. And it doesn’t mean being cocky or puffed up about yourself. It means open-hearted faith in your own capacity for natural wisdom and compassion, belief in fundamental, basic goodness. It means resting in the knowledge that everything is unfolding exactly as it should be, and that everything presents an opportunity to love more, to learn to practice and get stronger.

2. Truth: I will know what to do when the bad stuff happens. It will be bad, hard, brutal, and maybe even terrifying, but I will be able to handle it, make the right decisions, do the right thing.

3. Truth: I don’t have to live in the someday moment of terror right now. I don’t have to actively reject it, plan for it, worry about it, or anticipate it. I can surrender, let go and be present in this moment. This moment when he is here, I can see him, reach out and touch his physical form, a body that right now is surprisingly healthy and strong, alive.

One wish: That everyone suffering from physical illness, whether it be chronic, temporary, or terminal feel some relief, experience love, connection, and joy in this moment.

August Break: Day 29

This is a picture of me and my oldest niece, (who knows what we were eating, but we were enjoying it). It was taken ten years ago. She turns 14 today. When I look at this picture, I see how much younger we both were, and wonder at how much more innocent.

In the past ten years, we’ve both been through some really hard things — some of them happened to us but some of it was self-imposed suffering. We are both smarter and stronger for it. My wish on her birthday is that in the next year we each experience more love and more joy. Happiest of birthdays to you, Love Bug!

Something Good

This post is late. I had a long, long, hard, busy day yesterday, and by the time I got home at almost 8 pm, I just didn’t have it in me to do it. So, here it is–better late than never?

1. Creative Superheroes Interview: Laurie Wagner on Superhero Journal.

2. Neil Gaiman announced that he’s writing another Sandman. You might not already know this about me, but I love Neil Gaiman’s writing and his voice, and the Sandman series was how I first encountered his work, so I’m very excited that there will be another.

3. This quote: I couldn’t live without dog. ~Arthur Schopenhauer (German Philosopher). Me either.

4. Land Art. I was reminded of this when I found a post on This is Colossal about the work of Andres Amador. There’s also this post and this one and this, and of course there’s Andy Goldsworthy, whose work is the first Land Art I’d ever seen.

5. Maybe. Maybe Not. on Nourishing the Soul. “If we are caught up in defining the events of our lives as positive or negative, we lose our ability to see and to hear the quiet ways in which other opportunities are presenting themselves.”

6. Convalesce on SouleMama. “I don’t know that we currently live in a world in which we can all lay low, painting in the sunshine and spending weeks recovering from illnesses. But I do know for certain that in small but important ways, we can all be a little bit gentler on ourselves – and each other. And that a cure for so many things lives in moving slowly and being still. “

7. How to Become Open to Life on Zen Habits.

8. Manifesto love: three manifestos for creatives on Zebra Sounds. I love a good manifesto, and I love Judy Clement Wall.

9. How to Be an Explorer of the World on Brain Pickings. 

10. This quote from Raam Dev:

There are times in life when we need to go with what feels right. Ignore all the critics, the naysayers, and those who will judge us by their own definition of truth. Create your own path, forge your own destiny, and make all the mistakes and dead-end turns necessary to arrive alive. Sometimes what we need cannot be put into the context of right or wrong but must be defined and acted upon by the compass of our soul.

11. This quote: What most of us think of as fear is primarily a mental process of imagining situations that do not exist in the moment. ~Cheri Huber

P.S. Tuesday’s Three Truths and One Wish will be a day late this week too, will be written and posted tomorrow. I’m sensing a theme, seeing a pattern to this week…