Day of Rest

I’ve been feeling a bit shaky and unsure of myself the past few days. Do you know what that’s like? Wondering if anything you do matters, falling into sadness and comparison, feeling unworthy and disappointed, letting fear and uncertainty confuse you, unable to get out of your own way?

But in this tender and vulnerable state, there are reminders that I am fundamentally good, wise and kind and powerful, that I am capable of so much good and that so much is possible, and I am inspired to keep trying.

I’m telling you, the world is in short supply of truth-tellers. If you can be an authentic one, enough people will listen. ~Chris Guillebeau

What you do need, perhaps, is a freak point. A badass point of view. A particular aesthetic. And the ability to protect it from those who, for whatever reason, would deny it or fuck it up. ~Justine Musk

Confidence is the willingness to be as ridiculous, luminous, intelligent, and kind as you really are, without embarrassment. ~Susan Piver

My enoughness is infallible. unshakeable. unchanging. Even in moments when I feel not enough. I am enough, experiencing temporary disconnection from that truth. ~Rachel Cole

We already have everything we need. There is no need for self-improvement. All these trips that we lay on ourselves—the heavy-duty fearing that we’re bad and hoping that we’re good, the identities that we so dearly cling to, the rage, the jealousy and the addictions of all kinds—never touch our basic wealth. They are like clouds that temporarily block the sun. But all the time our warmth and brilliance are right here. This is who we really are. We are one blink of an eye away from being fully awake. ~Pema Chödrön


And then, I’m also able to remind myself that numbers (stats and such) don’t matter if I am showing up with an open heart, telling the truth, and one single solitary person hears me and is comforted, feels less alone.

10 thoughts on “Day of Rest

  1. Eydie

    Jill,

    I hear you. Your words always comfort me, far more than you will ever know. I hope that by leaving my words here, you feel can comfort and know that you are not alone.

    You are gifted writer, always true to your heart.

    Hugs

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    1. jillsalahub Post author

      Eydie, thank you so much for that. It means so much to know you are “out there” and I am always so grateful for your kindness. Much love to you.

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  2. Eydie

    Jill,

    My words ran out of place. I know you know, what I meant to say ….

    “I hope that by leaving my words here, you can feel comfort and know that you are not alone.”

    Much love to you.

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  3. Tina Tierson

    Jill, what amazing timing you have. In contemplating starting a blog, I feel more and more that I’m not good enough, that I have nothing to say that anyone would want to hear. “Wondering if anything you do matters, falling into sadness and comparison, feeling unworthy and disappointed, letting fear and uncertainty confuse you, unable to get out of your own way?” is exactly where I am just now. So thank you for sharing your feelings and for including the lovely quotes. Today especially I’ll be taking them to heart. xoxo

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    1. jillsalahub Post author

      Oh Tina, I can’t wait until you start blogging! I swear if you just start, it will be easier, better than you thought. And at first, you don’t have to tell anybody you are doing it if you don’t want to, (or you could tell just me, and I could visit and cheer you on, just like you do for me). Oh, and in terms of “no one wanting to hear what you have to say,” I always think of it like this: in a world where there are 7 billion people, there are at least a few of them who think and feel just like I do, and they would appreciate hearing it out loud.

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      1. Tina Tierson

        Thank you for your awsomeness! I probably will do a couple of posts quietly at first, and then post to a few folks (and thank you for offering to be one of them!) I registered a domain name and was going to hire the wonderful Sarah O’Leary to put the blog together on WordPress (that’s what she suggested) but now my work has all but disappeared and I won’t be able to pay her, so I’m kind of in a dither to know what to do. (I’m not the least bit tekky!) I think if I start with just my posts and no sidebars I can do that, but I do want to be able to add links to blogs I love and a what’s on my bookshelves sort of thing. So I may just have to start small and work my way up.

        BTW, your book obsession is another thing we have in common! I, too, have told myself I’m not going to buy any more but …. OMG – not only is Anne Lamotte coming out with a new book this year, but so is Barbara Kingsolver and Brene Brown!!! Lamotte, Kingsolver, and Brown, OH MY!! :-)

  4. Julia Fehrenbacher

    Oh Jill. It’s been far too long since I’ve been here, since I’ve visited beautiful Jill. You have been on my mind, in my heart so much–this summer has been full speed/all-over-the-place-ness. You always remind me of what matters most–deep breaths, slowing down, walks with loved ones, this very moment…you are a precious beauty.

    Thank you for showing up as YOU. Your open heart, your truth telling fills me full.

    Loved filled hugs to just right you.

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    1. jillsalahub Post author

      You have had such a busy, full summer, haven’t you? And so much of it was love, love, love. The interview you did with Lori was so precious, the two of you together = adorable! It was one of the things that helped me get steady this week, the things you talked about, reminded me of, the encouragement and inspiration, the cute way you play with your hair :) Your truth telling gives me courage. So much love to you!

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